A week in a post

I know I know I KNOW. WORST BLOGGER EVER. And I'm losing viewers sobsob );

To make up for the lack of posts, I am gonna spend time to find pics and upload them okay. And also because these past few days have been quite amazing.

Lets start from last Monday. Which was supposed to be the last day of options, but guess who did not go (Sorry mel we did not mean to leave you alone at entre :(. Went to Bugis with kelly clarissa cynthia. We had pizza for lunch and it was really really big slice and yumz. Shopped at Haji Lane first but the stuff there was so not within our range. Moved back to Bugis Street and we spent damn long shopping. Bought some stuff that I am quite happy with hehehe :D But when we were leaving the RAIN WAS SO HEAVY. I put on my new sweater on the way home; it was a good buy.
Then one thing led to another and I met mum at JEM. While waiting for her I went to cotton on to try on the shortall and suspender skirt thingys cause I thought they looked quite cool. But nope everyone else I asked said they looked weird. Went to this Malaysian restaurant for dinner. I wanted curry chicken but my mum was like 'no no must try their signature dish!' That turned out to be nasi lemak WHICH IS REALLY GOOD and was served with curry sauce so YAY. (I PROMISE THERE ARE PICS FOR OTHER DAYS)

Tuesday was another cool day. Was supposed to go for CCA awards but well uhm I couldn't find my no.3 shoes HHAHAHA. So I went for this stupid watson test that was so pointless it was just a URL why couldn't I have done it at home. I was so pissed off I just randomly chose my answers. Went to pack stuff for entre and we weren't even done at 11.45 although matriculation starts at 12 and its at RI. We packed up it record time and ran out of school to take taxis. Not bad we were only 5 mins late. Jasmine the NOOB came in when the talk was already half-done and we were waving to her but she just couldn't see us HAHAHA cue small-eyes jokes.
 A bunch of things happened after and I sort of got separated from my group so I just followed the other group around and we were like okay we will meet at salted caramel. But when the bus came my group was already on it WHAT i had no idea and was still calling clarissa hahahaha.

THIS IS SALTED CARAMEL IN SUMMARY:

Less than 10 mins later

The PEANUT BUTTER is really really really good. But not everyone appreciates it though. ALL THE MORE FOR ME :)

Went to Prata House next. What cool kids right, dessert before actual meal. Had my usual cheese prata but OMG their curry is really nice. Hahahahaha I can't seem to stop talking about food #sorryimnotsorry 

Before going to Gillian's, we stopped at the playground and acted like 6 year olds.

(wah i really cannot do this pics thing. Please forgive me and anw everything is on FB)

Played modified Cluedo that I came up with and everyone got really creeped out when some (NOT JUST ONE) people guessed it on their first round like WHAT EVEN HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE. Took bus with Thengyi to clementi and reached home to find there was no dinner so I had cup noodles. 

Wednesday was quite emotional tbh. Jasmine and I walked into school through bus-stop gate then walked out through main gate just to welcome kelly clarissa natalie. Its really cool that they reached at almost the same time like THAT IS FATE. Went to the hall where no one was listening to the teachers giving instructions and our entering amphi part was quite screwed up but i dont even know what went wrong. Farewell assembly was alright and I actually legit sang the school song. It is SUPER HIGH it took a lot of effort to hit those notes. Our class took a lot of photos on a lot of different cameras HAHAHAHA we were just waving like mad to different ppl to get them to help us take pics. 

Was quite tired at the end so I found myself a seat and someone else had the same idea

Entre group ran around like headless chickens distributing stuff and everything was so confusing. I think we messed up a lot of things but couldn't be bothered to fix them. In the end we gave up and was like 'lets continue next year' so that became the official plan. We went back to class and found out we actually earned quite a lot (though not as much as we initially expected). I was swarmed with a lot of documents and papers and Ms Ng saw me sitting on the floor surrounded by piles of stuff and she came over to make sure I was okay. She's really super sweet! 

Mr Lim came to class (he has been looking for us since morning) and demanded me the treasurer to justify our earnings for entre. He refused to accept the one we had came up with so me kelly clarissa decided to whip one up right on the spot. IMO we did a really good job. 

Then photo-taking time!

 Do we look alike? Apparently a lot of ppl think so. But I guess backview really does lah. we are like same height same weight.

 More of the twins of 415!

Ah the good old times of sem1 #backrowswag 

Not just any group pic, its a COOL group pic. We were demonstrating how to do the pyramid after the other group failed their 2 attempts. I think we are quite good.

 Such school pride :) While taking this pic this bus filled with HC guys drove past and they were judging us so much. And we disturbed these 2 juniors twice to get this perfect pic.

Settler's Cafe afterwards. Its a really cool place please go check it out if you have the time. Its only 6 bucks for students for 3 hours of boardgame + free flow of drinks super worth it. Went there for entre before and the guy recognised us. He even gave us half an hour extra to play their huge wall of boardgames so sweet right :)

I say I was emotional that day because the previous night I was suddenly flooded by a lot of memories. I think it was partly due to everyone suddenly reminiscing on Twitter. Then during Chloe's speech when she looked like she was going to cry I felt exactly the same. I have complained to many people on countless occasions about all the things I cannot stand in RGS, but I guess what made those things abit more bearable are the people. Especially 415'13, 213'11, thpowerof10, WISH. When sitting in class I tried imagining it was the last time seeing those people and that made me really really sad, so I started thinking about JC instead. Please don't pretend we are strangers when we meet in JC next year.
And may we have many reunions in the days to come :D


On to Thursday. Woke up quite early cause previous night I just reached home and crashed. Went for a short jog and felt healthy for like 2 minutes until I came home and had choco mint cookies HAHA. Went to bishan to study with kelly. Sat at marble slab for 4 hours, supposedly doing chinese but i gave up after half a paper. She tested me chengyus and I tried force-fitting these ridiculous stories but nope. Mum was going to Bartley to go house-shopping so the plan was to meet her but her train got stuck so we about-turned and went back to clementi to have dinner. Left lazy dad at home to fend for himself oops. Idk why but this whole week I have been feeling damnn tired so I reached home and crashed again.

Friday. Supposed to be feeling relieved its the end of the week but tbh everyday feels the same now so no diff. Went to bishan library at noon to study with kelly clarissa natalie gillian michelle. Gillian had a bit of crisis in the middle and somehow we ended up at J8 looking for food. Shared a box of chewy juniors and OMG the CHEESE is still my FAV. Bought a big pack of chips back to eat in the library. Discovered we had a nice little gift from the librarians who were being extra annoying that day. We found this pink slip that basically told us we were breaking a bunch of rules. It was quite funny though we put the chips in nat's bag and pretended that we were stealthily eating when in fact the whole wide world could see us but THERE WAS NO "NO EATING" SIGN. I had a little adventure otw home cause I got lost twice when I thought there was gonna be a bus home at 2 diff locations but turns out both these locations DID NOT have any buses home.
Rushed to get to ballet but there was no need cause teacher was late. So we decided to play a prank on her. Well 2 pranks actually. First, we would tell her nicole was in the toilet when in actual fact she was waiting behind the door and would jump out at her. The second prank was that the rest of the class hid and left me nicole victoria to tell her that everyone else had gone home. She legit believed us and was gonna start class with the 3 of us and it was super funny when the rest all streamed into the studio hahahhaha.

The plan for Saturday was to study Chinese, but my mum decided going to Johor's premium outlet was more important. Went with aunt and cousin as well. The 2 parents were super happy to get a lot of deals on their stuff. While they were legit trying on stuff I went around the Armani store being a nuisance and trying on random stuff that cost thousands of dollars. I have no idea why its so ex though. When I have time to figure out how to upload pics from my phone I will post my FAV BUY and other pics okay. But that took the whole day so I really have to study Chinese today. Its O's in 3 days in case I have forgotten.

Up All Night

AHAHAHAHA HIHIHIHIH HELLO HELLO

Its already OCT9. WTF. The first day of OCT doesnt feel that long ago. Time is passing really slowly, but really fast at the same time. I dont even know man.

Options were supposed to be fun, not boring. sighpie. Ok, time for an update.

Baking - is so not ponnable. She keeps track of our attendance+performance like a hawk. Fortunately chiangthebaker is in my group, so at least we get our things done :) But during pracs cynthia and I are always just walking around, cause cheryl is in my group and joey is in her group and those 2 are like the pros measuring whisking baking washing cleaning. Then there we are just waiting to eat ahahaha.

MedBio - you simply can't expect to have my attention during a 3-hour lesson. Mrs Huang is super entertaining though; wonder how my bio grades would have turned out if she had been my bio teacher instead hmmm. But 3-hour lab lessons are like the bane of my existence.

Matrix - SO SIAN. Last week donna cynthia clarissa and i decided that nope we do not want to go for matrix class, so we went to the library. cynthia and I spent the hour watching one direction videos on youtube, while the other 2 slept. Donna was snoring a little, so guess what cynthia took a video HAHAHA it was damn amusing. Audrey was sleeping on the couch beside me and when she got woken up by our laughter and saw our 1D video on youtube, she just went like "SERIOUSLY?" i feel you i do not know what my life has become.

Entrepreneurship - I think this is the best options ever. maybe because kelly clarissa and i just sit in the back row as usual and laugh at things. And who can forget $$$ hehehe.

2 and a half more weeks of this. Actually it wouldn't even be that bad if options weren't in the afternoon. Wasting so much time in school after core lessons/ checking paper and waiting for options to start.

OHOHOH but one time we went to magic lab to watch movies and guess what I watched. A HORROR MOVIE - sinister. Walao it was damn scary leh. At first nat clarissa gillian were gonna watch on their com, but then not working, so they came over to my com and i sort of joined them. I have not watched a horror movie since my first one in P5 because I got so damn freaked out. I basically spent the whole movie half covering my eyes. The volume wasnt even that loud but the music was just so damn scary. URGH i am getting creeped out okay no more.

On monday we started out watching now you see me but halfway through kelly clarissa and i decided to start finding jobs. We creating a fake email account using jasmine's name and no. and when we told her she was like super confused hahahaha.


uh more updates.

A few weeks ago i got sucked into the one direction world on youtube, and I couldn't get out. yeah, i know some ppl are so gonna judge me, but wtv. HAHAHA yes one direction became my obsession. oops. but thats not all. I dragged the gang out to watch THIS IS US with me, and we had like the whole theatre to ourselves and we held a mini party there. So now 1D is not an uncommon topic of discussion :D but now the initial super obsessed period has passed. No longer listening to their songs on repeat or spending nights watching their videos or stalking them. Just reading fanfics otw to school.

omg updates seem to never finish. Speaking of going to school, I have decided to be independent for the month of october and not take school bus. Also because some morning I don't need to be in school that early. So now I have to wake up 15 mins earlier to take mrt to school. Meet jasmine at orchard every morning cause the first time i didn't know how to get to school. yes, after 4 years I had no idea how to take  mrt to school . BUT now i do ok so no mocking. And its good to talk to the innocent child because I don't get to see her much nowadays.

Past 2 mornings + last week was paper checking. Kelly and I have been having spending the time having some pretty enlightening conversation. But since sharon is right beside me, we have been guessing her marks too and its pretty demoralising. oh wells.

And yes i am awake at 3am on wednesday because past few days i have been feeling super tired and yesterday i reached home at 5+ and just crashed until 11. so yeah. today is a longlong day. Bio paper checking in the morning but whats the point i already know my score. Followed by double chinese which is like DOUBLE SIAN. Then got matrix and dundundundun 3-HOUR  BIO LESSON. well back to sleep now i guess.

Now I know why it never works when you tell a kid to stop crying.
You can't control your tears.

To an amazing journey that is to be continued

I fail to comprehend how someone can not be excited about going to the USA. Somemore while others like yours truly are stuck in boring Singapore. Do you not realise how JEALOUS I am of you. And your trip is so similar to mine (same airline, same departure time, same date of different month, same country, same weather, same layover) that I cannot help but relive my memories. AND ITS OVERWHELMING.  It was EXACTLY 2 months ago that we were sitting in the airport, waiting for our flight that was 5 hours later. All the shopping and eating and hot people and cool weather and accents and OMG JUST EVERYTHING. Better bring me souvenirs.

I love the airport

TROPHY

This is my favourite photo

Doesn't this look so magical and fantasy-gardeny

Look at all our braids.

To find the above pictures I was looking at all our other photos, and I realise how huge a part CmPS has played in my life for the last two years. Just Keep Calm and W.I.S.H. 

Mrs Lee. Yuexin. Zek Min. Zhang Xuan. Wang You. Vivian. Kate. Shayna. Beverley. 

Love life. Cause YOLO

Trying to keep myself from falling asleep because if I do I will never wake up in time for ballet. So let me talk about my week!

Cannot remember what happened on monday which means nothing exciting happened. Tuesday was bleargh cause revision.

I used up half of my new pen's ink on wednesday because I wrote 4 and a half essays in total. IT WAS HORRIGIBLE. Especially ss and chinese. Had no effing idea what I was writing for ss. I didn't even understand my own essay wtf. Then Chinese I was rushing the front part of my zuowen cause I thought I had really little time left, but turns out there was more than enough time so I tried to make my back part super detailed to compensate for the beginning but it was so failzzz.

HAHA my class was super YOLO that day. So many people came without annotating anything on their ss seen article. And after the first paper we were already searching for movie timings and heckcaring about the other two papers hahahaha. So our plan was to go movie hopping but well it didnt happen.

I met Ms Sebastian alone outside school cause I had to some cmps stuff and she was so nice! She was so concerned about kelly, and us having no life. Haha when I told her we were gonna watch a movie she was like "oh thats good! At least you all still have lives"

BUT OMG DESPICABLE ME 2 IS AMAZEBEANS. THE MINIONS HAD SUCH MAJOR ROLES AWWWWHHHHH. we laughed sosososooso much. And how could we resist doing this:

GUESS WHAT there was free popcorn refill. So after we finished the 2 boxes and the movie we went for a refill. And just stood in a circle in the middle of cine and just ate popcorn. LOL.

We went for a quick shop afterwards at H&M and F21 hohoho. We were all damn high from the popcorn and just picking out ridiculous stuff. Ooohhhh I taught Jasmine the Matt Bomer hat trick that is so damn cool. Haha I remember replaying that scene from White Collar over and over again until I learnt the trick that is actually not that hard but takes a lot of practise to look cool and not noob. 

It was like the beginning of a long weekend because it was slack thursday the next day. So I yolo-ed somemore and only wrote half of the zuowen that was due on thursday. And I was still high from popcorn but idk what i did but i do know that I slept at 1.

Ya slack thursday was so slack. My entire goal for the day was just to finish the rest of my zuowen. But idk whats wrong with me I had planned to write less than 4pages at first but in the end I wrote 6 pages. PE was fun though we played netball! When cynthia and I stretch our arms up to pass the ball everyone else just goes like "NO FAIR height advantage!" teehee. Assembly was quite depressing because there was this super hot asian girl from california. Nat and I were just like FML why cant we be her.

I was supposed to home at 1 and go swimming. But it was raining and I had to stayback to finish my zuowen because Im guai like that. Oh btw the banana muffin from school sucks. I shall continue my hunt for the nicest banana muffin at the coffee bean next. I went to JE library to borrow the book after beach blondes. HOHO they have the whole series there. And I lost my phone for the first time in my life there. It was quite a unique experience. And there was this cute guy who suddenly shouted "HEY! Catch!" And did this huge pantomime of throwing something but not actually throwing anything. Then he just reached out his arm and said "Na, free gift" haha so cute right! And self reminder: Bad idea to be at JE MRT during peak hours!

Kay look at what I have produced instead of sleeping. WOWSIES not bad. not bad at all.

Pre-mugging high?

OHGOD study plan for tonight not working out at all.

I shall plan tmr instead and force myself to follow it kay.
So school is normal tmr I guess. 4 proper lessons + PE + CLE. Maybe there will be hints for history. But nope cannot count on mizar he hasnt even graded my fa wth.
SS supp class after school. I am counting on mrlim. cause i really have no idea what to do for ss. I mean the last time I went for his supp class I managed to scrape a 3.6 for that paper not bad at all.
Then go study room study history until 6. MUST FINISH EVERYTHING.
Reach home eat bathe youtube until 8.
SS until 9. FINISH EVERYTHING.
Memorise hist+chinese then SLEEP EARLY.

HAHAAHHA at first I was so damn pissed at qile for repeatedly asking for notes, even AFTER I sent alr. But it turns out 好心有好报 he has history notes THANK YOU. but i had to endure his qileness hahahaahha what yao hu xiang bang zhu ma.

eeeee TMY is being mean. meanie minnie minyi <3

Exercise your right

I think this post needs a disclaimer. I am not saying everyone needs to look a certain way. This is just the way I like it. It is my opinion, and everyone is entitled to have their own. You know what, you should only keep reading if you are not judgmental or easily offended.


At the start of the year I actually had slightly visible abs that were hard and firm. Because I trained so damn hard at the end of last year.

I tried continuing my workouts this year but nope. Its not that I didn't want to, but there were always so many other things to do. I resorted to doing a few exercises and stretches before I slept every night, while stalking twitter and insta at the same time (cause im creepy like that).

And those are obviously not very effective, because my abs are gone :(GONE WITH THE WIND );
And its not like I will have time anytime soon to train them back WALAO. But someone has enlightened me that since I am not getting fitter or more toned, I should prevent myself from getting fatter. Usually I just eat whatever I want and burn off the calories at the end of the day, but now since I am burning so much less calories, I need to balance it out by not eating so much. SIMPLE? I WISH.

When I first started being health-conscious at the end of last year, I stuck to my 'diet' so well. I cut back so much junk food and replaced them with fruits, drank 3 litres of water everyday, had some form of exercise everyday, cut back meal portions and stopped eating at night.  That worked out for like 2 months, until school started this year. I think I got complacent, because the number of the weighing scale was lower and I felt more fit. So I lost control and everything started going downhill, especially after my ballet exam and NAPFA.

I think the appropriate punishment would be to train extra hard this Nov hols. I have decided: I will not be so focused on just abs anymore. Haha idk why but last time abs just seemed the most appealing. But its not like many people get to see them anyway so I shall train areas like thighs butt shoulders back and those strengthless arms, together with abs ohyeah.

But until then the only thing I can do is try not to become fat.

Let yours truly tell you what happened did today

YOURS TRULY...

-went for my first and last swim carn, even though...
-cannot swim more than 50m
-just gave out rubber bands to pro swimmers
-cannot understand how some people don't get tired from swimming so much

-disagrees that girls and boys can't be BFFs because there are things called friend-zone and FWB
-doesn't like the assumption that girls from girls' school do not interact with boys or cannot possibly be in BGRs.

-got laptop back, after 2 months without it
-also got a skateboard, but has no time to learn it

-is craving chicken

-is screwed for bio SPA tmr
-shall give up and go sleep

Cornered

OKAY you know what so many things have happened during the June hols I don't even know where to start.

Im really sorry if you have been waiting for posts about my June hols, but that's not coming. And I forsee a really busy term ahead. So please have low expectations.

I know, I don't like the direction my blog is going in too :(

But apparently my studies have to take priority over everything. I even gave up the chance to take my ballet exam, but I guess it was already enough of an honour and confirmation of my work to be selected in the first round.

Thank god for study mugging buddies.

Hai viewers why are you guys so persistent.
I know there are a lot is posts and updates that need to be made.
Such as what happened in the amazing land of AMERICA.
yes yes it is pretty exciting.
And super unbelievable.
Everyday not spent there feels so long and draggy.
Feels like ages ago when I was there and it was merely a week ago,
I would love to spent another two hours here typing out the whole trip but....


I'm sick.
It's like a combination of stomach flu and super serious flu.
It was very sudden, and I sort of got better, but now it's coming back.
I shall hopefully post more after I get better.

Although I haven't completed any holiday work at all.
IM NOT SUPPOSED TO. No homework policy and all. Teachers are such cheater-bugs hmph.

Do hot people know they are hot

It has been such a crazy adventure. But the fun only began after our interview; before that was just stress nosleep tired scrapbook poster display flaps brochure game crossword memorise talk explain rehearse.

But it was soooo worth it. I think everything went rather well, and even mrs lee said we are already winners. Hey she is not one to give praises to us.

Hoho SHOPPING. Went to college mall on friday and saturday. TWO DAYS IN A ROW. Their sales are to die for man. Viv got an adorable sweater for less than $3 can you believe it. got so much nice pretty cute stuff. oh and chocolates. Even zek who actually shopped said everything was so meeee. I WANNA LIVE IN AMERICA. And monday going to premium outlet. Ahhhh my luggage is running out of space and weight.

Just now shayna wang vivian and me went to the social dance and actually danced around. It was like a disco suppppper COOL. Everyone just huddled together and did jumping and bouncing and raising hand stuff and being really really high. When it was almost our curfew this insanely cute guy decided to come and dance with us. Ben. Thats his name. He is tall blonde handsome lively cool what more can you ask for. So sad when we had to say bye at 11.

Whoooo cant believe i almost didnt want to go to the dance. Thanks viv for convincing me to wear my newly-bought clothes :)))))

KYM POSSIBLE

Yesterday afternoon while I was dying of heat in the COI holding room, apparently a lot of things happened.

Things that truly surprised me.
And not necessarily in a good way.

I realise that its one thing to judge strangers on the surface, but another to just make assumptions on people I have known for more than just a few years.

People change. And people grow. But as we gain more knowledge, its inevitable for things to become more complicated.

A lot of times when people come to me with their problems, I feel inadequate. I tell myself its okay if I cannot offer a solution. Maybe all they need is a listening ear and someone to care and love them.

But is that really enough? Merely listening?

I think deep down I know that's not enough. That I should somehow find a solution.



Even if I don't have faith in myself, I trust us. We are supposed to be the strongest. Even if the results are saying otherwise, I believe this last spurt is all they need.
I just need them to gain back the confidence they had at the beginning of the year, the confidence that I would never even  have dared to possess, the confidence that assured us so much, the confidence that no goal was unachievable.
I don't know where their confidence has gone to, or even where their hearts and souls have gone to. Hopefully, that was just a temporary thing.
And even though we don't say it or necessarily show it, they really mean a lot to us. They are all we are going to have, and we want to leave feeling satisfied.

Guess which badass went running in the rain

It was quite cool having the whole road to myself. Now my mood has been significantly lifted. Time to watch some tv! :) Ooohh can I just add yesterday on tv I saw 3 hot bodies. 3! Okay fine lah only 2 were hot, but yay media is becoming more open (y)

'There is a difference between giving up and knowing you have had enough'

Today was a horrible day :(

Before the start of the bio paper when we were checking the number of pages, the whole class just started laughing because the paper looked damn hard and we knew that we were so screwed that there was nothing to do but laugh at our own screwd-ness.

At least lunch with the gang took my mind off some matters.

Gave myself the rest of the day off because I need to recuperate from today's horrible things before another round of hardcore mugging starts.

I really want to go for a run. Run all my energy away. But nothing likes me today, its raining.

I DONT KNOW HOW TO LML RIGHT NOW

I was deluded into thinking the only stressful thing this week is the 3 F-ing papers on Tuesday. ENGLISH (genetic engineering better be easy to write, otherwise I am screwed). PHYSICS (It looks easy on the surface, but the you realise HOLY SHIT). BIO (I just want to give up on this.)

Then I realised that nope thats not how other teachers see it.
So I have to write a malay compo by tomorrow, since it was actually due on Friday.
Then there is 3 hours on philo this week. With 2 hours of his face. Its like life is not letting me escape his face. And 1 hour of philo exam, which apparently you are supposed to study for.
Math Assignment. (IM STUCK ON SOME ln question HELP)
Chem Assignment.
And OMG Sunday is Mothers' Day. The same day my mom is flying back from USA after 3 months. Which means I have to prepare some sort of present. And I want to buy a cake. But to buy a cake you have to go to the mall. And me+mall=not a good idea during the busiest period of term.
And ballet lessons resume this week. Taking up my Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights. How nice.

So survive this week and I'm good? NO.

The following week:
Philo (AGAIN WTF) COI on monday
3 Papers on Thursday. (PLS SOMEONE TEACH ME RATE OF CHANGE)
SS AA proposal due latest latest Friday.
Malay exam on Friday.
Then ATC.

And then the CmPS craziness will start. WAILLLLLLLL. (At least the prospect of USA will be such a driving force for us)


I just want time to read Mockingjay and Beach Blondes. Books I have been meaning to read since 2 years ago. Can everything else please just go away.


Time seems so much longer when your night ends at 2am instead of 10pm. Yet the work left to be done seems to never decrease.


Just now when I went to buy dinner this weird dude came up to me and asked me if I liked apples. It was damn WEIRD. I was going up from 2nd to 3rd level, and he was coming down. Then when I was on the next escalator from 3rd to 4th floor he suddenly ran up next to me. WHY DO I ATTRACT WEIRD PEOPLE THIS IS NOT COOL.


Please try not to be surprised if I start swearing in front of you. I am seriously losing it. And I have been under bad influence. Very few people have actually heard me swear, but at times like this I don't give a F. (wow I amaze myself with my decency to at least keep it to acronyms when I can)

Can june hols just start now

I need someone to teach me from the start everything we have learnt for chem this year. In return, I wil umm... give you food.

I am already doing math and physics myself kayyyy. Today I managed to do one math question by myself and I felt sososososo proud of myself. And it was not a short question. The solution took up ONE WHOLE PAGE. hahahaha but actually I just copied the working from in front and it sort of fit but still. And apparently I look professional doing physics so tyvm i accept that compliment and shall assume that physics is my friend.

While I was contemplating my life while spacing out during malay just now, I seriously considered just giving up on bio. I honestly do not get anything. And even if I somehow manage to understand things there is like no way I will memorise everything in time. But then I realised HEY I have friends who are bio experts. And one owes me a favour for lending him math worksheets cause yk smart people like to study in advance. SO hopefully by the end of next week I will understand all things bio.

English: I am putting all my hope on Jasmine and Nigel's notes. Like, ALL MY HOPES.

And malay karangan. HAHA forget it please. I study a bit the day before not bad alr can.



Guess who ran 2.4 today. It was so hot and draggy and slow and I felt so unfit and tired by the 3rd round. And people who have timings like 12 and 9 are coming to me telling me they are too slow. PUHLEEZ at 9 minutes I wasn't even done with my 4th round. And you wonder why I don't want to go running with you.



Finally set SENTOSA DATE. Omg we have been talking about it since like the start of the year hahaha not bad we will all be turning up at open house all tanned and stuff. we need the atas hotel sleepover tooooo omg sounds so fun :D


Hopefully primary sch ppl are more free during June hols. We NEED to go somewhere besides the west (which does not include sending Nicole to tuition at bugis or meeting me at orchard). sentosa pls pls pls. hahaha liren has been wanting to go since like last year.


This post totally shows the mood I have been in since the end of malay class and i was walking along the track with minyi and the sun was so warm and soft and life just seemed so good. Also no waiting time for  buses today and pizzahut for dinner equals to good mood me :)

I need to love the way I dance

10:30am
I don't even know why ballet exam is making me so queasy. Ahhhh please let my nervousness stop soon. I can't afford to blank out later helpppppp. I am supposed to be chillin right now but no im sweating just by sitting here.

Okay I should probably go and practise one last time. Yeah that sounds like a good idea.

11:10am
Now the nervousness is gone. Replaced by panting and sweat. WHY IS IT SO HOT.
11:11 please let me do well!

Best of both worlds

WHY AM I SUCH A CONTRASTING PERSON. Its like I can't make up my mind who I want to be.

Sometimes I am so self-consious. Other times I don't f-ing care how I look like.
Sometimes I want to be healthy. Other times I walk straight into Macs.
Sometimes I am in NCC uniform. Other times I am in a leotard and tights.
Sometimes I want to buff and muscular. Other times I want to be skinny.
Sometimes I go for the hipster style. Other times I go for the girly style.
Sometimes I like black and white. Other times I am all about the colours.
Sometimes I am so hungry I can eat a two-person meal. Other times even the thought of food disgusts me.
Sometimes I love waking up. Other times I consider sleeping forever.
Sometimes I enjoy studying. Other times I just want to quit school.
Sometimes my clothes have no sleeves. Other times my clothes are long-sleeved.
Sometimes I like being a minimalist. Other times I like being a hoarder.
Sometimes I am scared of the cold. Other times I am scared of the heat.
Sometimes my favourite colour is pink. Other times I think pink is way too girly.
Sometimes I am neat and OCD. Other times I am messy and can't be bothered.
Sometimes I like you. Other times I don't.

Single and unavailable

Can I please make something clear. Not every boy I talk to is my boyfriend. Yes some I may talk to a lot, but there is no need to jump to the conclusion that we are together. Please understand there are such things as boySPACEfriends. Not that I have one that sounds as perfect as described below.

If I can't lose them, means I gotta stop eating them

Wow what a lucky week right before my ballet exam.

During class on Saturday, I either went down too far or opened too wide, but when I stood up my hamstring was damn pain.

And just now I sort of fell down on all fours. Knee won't stop bleeding, and the wound on my hand is pretty deep. Luckily I wasn't too far from home, and managed to hop and limp and hobble my way back. But its quite sad that were at least 4 people around me (and caused me to fall btw) and no one offered to help me :(  Its ok I'm INDEPENDENT.

But this is really really bad. I doubt I will be able to run fast this week, and thats not just gonna affect my ballet, but NAPFA. and I think this week I can't practise to my best. OHNO. Please please please be better before the exam so at least I can practise more. And kneel gracefully.

PLEASEEE. My dear body, I haven't been putting you through all the pain and bruises and sweat and hard work for nothing, please don't disappoint me. Please don't hate me, I'm counting on you. Everything I put you through will be worth it in the end.

No need to do the same to my heart

OKAY now you can't tell me last night wasn't confusing.

STOP CONFUSING ME.

That is bio's job. And chem physics math.

I already have enough confusion going on in my brain.

loved the hols

despite the 9 ballet lessons
despite the undone work
despite not being able to paint my nails
despite not getting to eat healthily
despite not finishing season2 of PLL
despite not doing any shopping

loved the freedom
loved the carefree feeling
going out
going home late
late-night suppers
sleeping late
waking up feeling relaxed and excited for the day ahead
ganging up and owning ppl at bridge
cuddling up in the blanket because reaching for the aircon remote takes too much energy
seeing people I haven't seen in a long time
seeing the same people multiple times cause we just seem to have countless things to talk about
stacking up accessories on my arms
hanging out in places like a gang and being a public nuisance but YOLO

Yet sometimes I think too little

I think too much about a lot of the things I do.

You know how everyone is always saying they are scared to confess their love or wtv to someone else because they do not want to lose their friendship.

Well, that is the mindset I have a lot of the times. I am afraid. Afraid of what might happen. Afraid that my actions might carry implications that I wouldn't know how to face. Or wouldn't dare to face.

And in typical love stories they end up confessing anyway. Problem is, I probably wouldn't.

Turns out its plain old confusion

Im not sure what sort of mood to approach this post with. Happy? Emo? Motivated? Tired? Ranty?

So many things have been going on that my brain has sort of packed some stuff away, tucked them into the back, so that they are sort of there but not really there. Thus, it appears like there is nothing going on. Problem is, the stuff that I am choosing to ignore right now are gonna come back and bite me. Hard. And Im not just talking about schoolwork. Though that itself is a big problem.

However (rebuttal to a rebuttal), the things that are not being ignored are making me...confused. And Im afraid to talk about them here, because the person/people behind the confusion may be reading (not risking it however slim that chance might be). Just know, that I'm confused and I'm not sure what the next step of action should be and I have no one to turn to to ask for advice.

Tick tock goes the clock

Crazily long and intense last week of lessons for the term.

Another rare Monday that I could go home right after school. I took so long to decide what to have for lunch that I ended up eating Subway at 4pm. Which in retrospect was not that bad of a plan because it meant dinner was unnecessary.

Tuesday was 5th March. A supposedly special day that was only made so by my friends <3 Malay was supposed to end early but there was this person there who was talking so much and asking so many questions that we ended up not ending that much earlier. Made me so impatient towards the end.

First TA of the year on Wednesday. Got it over and done with and then went out with two-third of thebackrow. But like half the class was on the same bus, and 80% of the bus was filled with rgs people.  Haha people kept shhh-ing here and there but that was like completely useless. Satisfied cravings for pepperlunch and cake on the same day :D Ooh btw thanks guys for the sinfully delicious cake.

Thursday was uneventful. Half the class was missing for chem and ss so nothing got done. Reached home after draggy bus journey and just crashed.

During math on Friday, kelly suddenly remembered that unit summary was due on that day and I was seriously scared by the way that had totally slipped my mind. Ended up rushing it after school and we almost couldn't get it printed out.

Today: Went for CmPS in the morning and since I was already at Orchard, what do I do? Shopping duh. Got back just in time for ballet, which ended 45 minutes late because we are still so bad even though exams are looming nearer and nearer. Thats my Saturday.

Tomorrow I plan to just stay at home and watch my shows while eating chips.

Musings mash-up

Long time no blog. Haha how is it that there are still people coming back here day after day of no posts. Well I forsee nothing exciting happening for this post. I just wanted to blog in the last hours of February.

This week I have been having minor freakout moments, about ballet exam. One month later they are gonna turn major. Not looking forward to that.

Satisfied zinger burger craving during study block today. YUMZ.

I think I have been practicing rather good self-control when it comes to shopping. Once it Jan, once it Feb. Problem is because it is so occasional, I always end up spending more than I wanted to. And my mum in the US is not helping. Talking about how big their stores are and how cheap their clothes are and how pretty they are arrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its like can i please just migrate there. Okay March is my birthday month and there is sch hols so at least I can go shopping more than once.

Birthdays are such great things. They solve the money part and the actual going out part.



So I guess I should talk about school and studies since that is like 80% of my life right now. After not succumbing to any persuasions, I have stuck to my decision to not take MSP O'levels. I know many people see is as a waste, as a missed opportunity, and i shall not waste my time trying to convince them otherwise, just remember that there is more than one side to everything.

I am appreciative of my dedicated teachers and my fun classmates, I really am.

I can't find the perfect length for my pinafore. Its either too short or too long.

CCA is getting too...repetitive. I think it has something to do with being a Part C NCO this year after just being a Part C myself last year. And the platoon is not as strongly bonded as before. Unavoidable I know, but still a sad thing  nonetheless.

Cannot make up for mind for subject combi. BCME or PCME? I feel more drawn towards the latter.

I have given up trying to make sense of it

My body clock is programmed super weirdly.

I was sososososo sleepy in the afternoon even though I had plenty of sleep the previous night. I managed to squeeze in a short nap and now I am super awake.

I seem to only do work in the morning, and that is IF I had just woken up. Which means I will end up doing nothing tomorrow.



This year has been so tiring everyday I reach home I just wanna sleep. So I have started sleeping super early, like 8pm then waking up super early, like 4am. The two hours before I start getting ready for school is super productive. I just get all the shit that needs to be done done so much quicker.


Sound like a good plan right. But NOPE. I tried that for 2 days and my body seems to think that 8 hours was just a nap. By afternoon I would be sleepy again zzzzzz.

Let us create more beautiful memories

Valentine's Day huh.

I just had a major moodswing session. It was rather horrible. I think I need to go run all these feelings away.


But THANK YOU kelly clarissa jenny minyi jasmine stephanie and my secret admirer. I <3 you guys :)


And I think today is an appropriate day to say that I really want to see you again, and those few times that we did go out together are some of my favourite memories.

The peace before the storm

First of all, 新年快乐！

Then, I am going to write about my life, because thats what my blog is for.

On Friday I met up with the 6R peeps again. Or at least, one-fifth of them. Shit is was sososososo fun.Met at orchard, chilled at ion, went to jp, had dinner, went to park, lepak even more, look at the stars, walked back. My mum started calling every five minutes since 10.30 until I finally reached my cousins house at 11plus. I am now selectively-grounded. Apparently I am not allowed to hang with them anymore, but whats there to stop me?

Finally went cny shopping on sat at chinatown. Super belated. My mum said yes to everything I wanted to buy :)

Reunion dinner at cousins house on sat, then another dinner at my house on sun, cmps today, bbq tomorrow.

No link

And here is where I end up while finding more ways to procrastinate learning tingxie.

This week would have been a wonderful week IF I didn't have to stay back on mon-thurs. But actually, you know what, Friday makes up for it all. Primary school REUNION :D Haiya I know its gonna be the same old people turning up again, but its still cool kay.

I am finally starting to get the rhythm of school again. Problem is its gonna be gone after the CNY break then I am gonna take one whole month to find it again, which by then would be march hols.

Teachers get judged by students A LOT. Or maybe its just us judging the teachers more than usual.

“One must maintain a little bit of summer, even in the middle of winter.”

I still havent given up all my new year resolutions kay. On the way to completing one of them: Learn to do a handstand. Hey not an easy feat considering my height and lack of safe places. But at least prior experience on doing cartwheels seem to be helping. Been practicing at the playground everytime after jogging. Which is obviously not very often.

But ultimate goal is this:

School is normal I guess. Really looking forward to CNY but definitely not all the shit thats gonna come tumbling right after that.


Mid-morning weather is so good nowadays. I see the sun shining down on the parade square, on the field, and I think of places like this.

But then there I am, stuck in school.

Deal with it

Today was a day where I felt like I was losing myself (Ok idk what that actually means but it felt like the right way to put it) and I decided to retrace my path on this blog. I was such a happy kid back in sec 2. I miss those days :(

I don't like to be sad or sentimental, so lets move on to something happier.

I saw a post where I put down the no. of each clothing item I have. And somehow I seemed to have though that was a lot. A rough estimate shows that I have since then doubled my wardrobe. And grew out my accessories collection from almost nothing to a lot of things. Haha. Superficial kid. Butbutbut, accessories are so prettyyyy.

Secretly a perfectionist?

I cannot cannot stand practicing hours and hours for somethings, but in the end screw it up when it really matters. I thinks thats why I am so scared of exams. Because exams entail spending so much time and effort for that short little amount of time in comparison. And I am not really talking about like school exams. Those happen too often already. I am talking about assessments that happen only occasionally. Like piano exams and ballet exams. I think ballet exams are the most hardcore. So much time spent each week for a year just for that one hour of exam.

(Context not just for ballet anymore) Because it hurts so much to screw up after you have practiced so hard for it, I have to train even harder. Problem is if you DO screw up, then you feel sadder if you have trained harder. Like if you didnt train as hard then you wouldnt be as sad. Haha am I still making sense.

Another super annoying part is if you are actually not bad at it while practicing, but then when it comes to the real thing you just screw up. But those people who suck while practicing suddenly become super pro during the real thing, that is, ARGH that is SUPER FRUSTRATING. Its like a combination of nerves and luck.



I really do appreciate my blog when I need somewhere to rant. And I am not really touchy-feely type of person so I would rather rant here than to another person.

Having to shout for lozenges

Falling sick :( I think the flu finally caught on to me. Its week 2 of school and 4 packets of my tissue have been used up. Interesting part is I only used 1 piece myself. Tissue supplier ;)

The whole back row is like sick. Except that buff kelly. I think we eat too much junk food liao. But at least I got drink water kay. Haha yesterday I drank so much that I had to pee super urgently just half an hour after going to the toilet.

Yesterday night I was already blur and tired. Like who the heck takes one hour to find 3 articles online. I don't even rmb what I was doing. It seems like the only thing I did last night was find those 3 articles. And I forgot to bring blouse today. Didn't even cross my mind until I was getting on the school bus. Turns out clarissa nvr bring also (toldya we were all falling sick) but in the end 4 of us in the back row didnt change out at all. Shhhh.

Spent one hour in the afternoon just talking with tmy. Like how zek would describe it 'spent so much time talking but don't even know what we were talking about.'


Ohohoho we finally measured our weight today. I am a kilo lighter than last year :)

不要生在福中不知福

I count today as the first official day of school. Lessons were super tiring can. Trip science + math + two languages. Mondays are the worst. 

But heheh there was no cca cause my cs are at obs. Last night I saw so many posts on twitter and fb by my batch about how they would rather spend the week at obs then having lessons. I disagree with that. Not that obs wasnt fun, but if given the choice I would still choose lessons. 

So after school I was planning to hobo around abit and crash bs' training, but omg THE WEATHER. All I did was walk from ncc room to canteen to refill bottles and back and I was already sweating. Imagine them poor things training in no.4.  

I treated myself to ICE CREAM just now :D Havent had ice cream for months

I just found out something miraculous. For this WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK, I have nothing on after school. What are the odds of that happening. First, my part has to be away, stranded on an island. Then, there has to be no msp. Next, the school my cmps is presenting in has to postpone the date. Finally, there needs to be orientation so there is no available venue and there also needs to be coc pop rehearsal so that there are very little people left.

Hohoho what a glorious week.

So damn unprepared

DUDE school starts tomorrow. Which means by today I have to get everything sorted, which btw includes studying for some stupid chem test.  O.M.G.

Tomorrow morning I am going to take the school bus to RGS for the last first time of the year.

Freakin holy momma cow asdfsdjkfwjhwnfbsfu34852hbvlrj1490-290-t9jfjbjhti2hrknif

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DEARS

That previous post was so short because I was trying to get it published as soon as the loud cheering going on outside my house became SUPER LOUD.

Uhhuh, here I am sitting on my bed listening to the party going on just outside.

Great, now I am trying not to; because they are playing gangnam style (there is something about this song that puts me off).

Turns out my parents made it home 5 mins before the new year, so nothings remarkable or memorable about that.

This shall be my first post for 2013

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRR

This shall be my last post for 2012

Goodbye 2012! Overall, you have been an awesome year! Muacks!

I have no idea how to spend the last hour of 2012

I have already been on youtube the entire night, and right now I am...blogging.

Seriously though, I am just thinking about so many things that I could have done during the hols but didnt and being all like 'its too late now'. You know how people usually get upset thinking about stuff like that...but not me. I'm all like well if I had done those stuff then I would be regretting not doing the things that I really did, so theres really no point thinking about this point at all.


Tonight is soooo chilly. Here I am wearing a sweater and thick shorts, yet still getting chills. Funny thing is I only realised that like half an hour ago, after I decided to turn off my aircon to save electricity.

I really need to get a life. Or just get to a party.

On a windy night

Its gonna be 2013 in 1hour and 20 mins, and guess what. I AM STUCK AT HOME.

Okay originally I was supposed to go to the airport with my parents to fetch my cousins, but apparently they have a lot of luggage so there won't be enough space for me in the car. And their flight was originally supposed to land in the afternoon but it got delayed by 6 hours to 2130. I was fine with that, cause there would be more than enough time for them to fetch them back then come back to get me so we could all countdown together. But then boofreakinhoo its currently 2230 and their flight still hasnt landed yet.

Moreover, I have been forbidden to leave the house to go join any parties since its apparently too 'chaotic'. You see where this leaves me?

I may end up having to count down on my own.

That would be quite an important moment though; the first new year I am spending alone.

Poop.

Huh so I have just written a letter to future me. So different from what I usually do. But I guess the best person to tell your 'secrets' to is yourself?

Whilst writing the letter I realised I am not one to display my emotions. In fact, sometimes they are hidden so well that even I don't realise they are there, much less confront them.


Anyways, I have been living this past week being confused about what day it is, since I have been out most of the time and on the days I am home, BOTH my parents took leave, and don't forget all the christmas and new year holidays. That has resulted in me not being able to comprehend (until I happened to glance at the date) that today is the last day of 2012 and school begins in 2 days' time.

You know what would be appropriate right now? A bunch of vulgarities.

Why do things like that keep happening?

The scale was off AGAIN. So for days I have been worrying about going past the maximum weight I will allow myself to get to just to realise nothing has changed.

And I believe I need to stop thinking about my weight. My goal is not to be skinny, its to be fit and toned. Gotta keep reminding myself that. Healthy food is better than no food. Water is better than diet soda. Abs are better than sucking in the pooch.



On a completely different note, this song has been stuck in my head ever since I watched the latest ep of HIMYM.

They say I'm open, but am I really?

I wasn't gonna blog about this, but I really think I should.

So the reason why I was home so late was because I was hanging out with 6R people. Or should I say, 2 dudes.

Hahah the 'gathering/outing' was so fail. We originally plan to go wcp, but it started raining so we decided to watch movie instead. So

9 of us turned up

8 of us watched Jack Reacher

6 of us had Subway

5 of us went to hobo under mrt station

6 of us continued hoboing

3 of us hoboed a bit more then went to macs to sit and talk crap

Although in the end it was just the 3 of us talking about weird stuff and gossiping about ex-classmates, it was still so nice catching up and just chillin.

I can't believe i almost didn't go. Li Ren was smsing me the previous day during lion dance and I was so distracted by the stupid gong that I said yes. Thought about backing out last min, but I felt like I was obliged to go, so I went lorh. With the mindset that we were just gonna watch a movie and have a meal together at most. 

Never would I have expected to spend almost 3 hours after that talking to my ex-classmates whom I weren't even that close to, and there were no boundaries at all. Being classmates for 3 years sort of cancelled out the not seeing one another for 3 years part. Thanks guys, for being so amazing. It was seriously damn cool.

Omg we need to have more gatherings like that, but with everybody. I was reminded that there were 45 peeps in 6R. 45!!! Lets not be so pathetic kay, lets all be cool people :)

Now that I think about it, 315 hasn't had a single class outing before. Hahah at least we will all be back together as 415 in a few days time :D

Or maybe they just cant be bothered

For 2 consecutive nights I have reached home later than 2300. Pretty late for me, especially since I had to travel home alone. 

But it has led to the realization of how much freedom my parents have given me.

Really hooked

Okay lets all take a moment and look at this face

ARE YOU SEEING HIS FACE. Of course you are. Just look at that SMILE and those EYES.

That brought my fangirl level to 20%.

And this brought it to 50%.

Identical twins!!!!

Its a not-so-true fact that I am not that shallow to judge a book by its cover. Butbutbut just watch their videos! This one is the first one that got me hooked. Like a 100%.

You know why if I turn up with puffy eyes tomorrow

The longer I lie here staring into the dark, unable to fall asleep, the more scared and worried and overwhelmed I get.

This feeling is not unfamiliar, but it is very very unpleasant.

It makes me want to...cry. I think. And have a breakdown. Or is it called a meltdown? Whatever. Both.

I really really do not like sarcasm

That was uncalled for. And it hurts.

Under the mistletoe

Well he is considerably younger than my darlings. And this song is especially and amazingly suitable now.

So sweet <3

Sarcasm is fun, til it gets mean

3am in the morning, no one for me to rant to :( Seriously guys, its barely even nighttime!

But its ok, sleep early wake early. I totally understand.

Ya that is how sarcastic I usually am. Not very, I know. Point is, I have just witnessed some amazing sarcasm. Even though I am on the side of the receiving end, I couldn't help but admire your work. Its a whole new level of sarcasm, a level so high only the true masters can reach. Oh, and since we are all here to learn, I wikepedia-ed 'sarcasm' and they quoted Thomas Carlyle "Sarcasm is the language of the devil".

Now now, if you are reading this, which you really shouldn't be doing since you are so rule-abiding  and full of reasoning and truly believe in everything including shit taught to you, but I digress. In case you have decided to break a particular rule because you know no one will find out you have broken since you are behind that device of yours, then you are probably breaking down every sentence and word here and thinking that I am no better than you since this entire post is in sarcasm too.

Well guess what, I've got news for you. I could never reach your level even if I wanted to. Its simply too...whats the word..evil and bitchy and egotistical and just plain mean.


I don't understand. Why must you ALWAYS do this? Neither party has anything to gain. And I know you think you can, but the truth is, you CANNOT always get what you want. Would it really hurt so much to let go of certain things? This whole time we have been trying to find that rainbow at the end of  the storm, but you simply refuse to let go of those thunder and lightning and keep dragging over more clouds.

Oh and the boss has spoken "为什么要做得那么绝"

Dude, 2012 is not over yet

I dare say this holiday is NOT a well-deserved break. It has helped me realise how much a slacker I have been this whole entire year. Since I am basically doing the same stuff: internet + my shows + a teeny bit of work, except with more sleep.

Obviously this does not come as a surprise to me, and obviously I need to do something about it. I know kay, it does not evade me that in less than 3 weeks, it will be the start of my last year of secondary school. I am aware that in less than 3 weeks, it will be 2013. And yes, it has been brought to my attention that in 2013,  I will have to sit for my o levels; I will have to be a NCO; I will have to go to internationals; I will have to take my ballet exam; I will have to give a heck about my GPA. Damn it, I do not need to be reminded that i am going to be 16 and an IC-carrier (sidenote: not having to sneak in to NC16 movies anymore (y)).

Do you get my point? LESS THAN 3 WEEKS. I still have 2 weeks and 4 days. 

Problem is, I am not the only one

I have become a cynical ass. Refusing to believe the existence of non-judgmental, non-racist, non-discriminative people. Thinking all actions come with motives. Unable to embrace everything that comes across my path.

The rare moments when you can look at your belly and not feel self-hatred

Fell sick almost immediately after coming back. WHERE ARE MY HOLIDAYS.

Original plan was to lose 2kg by end of holidays; but that seem to have accomplished itself what with me having no appetite and expelling everything i eat.

But idc if i am still sick tmr, i am going to see xiaogui. AGAINNNNN. And conveniently he likes the west side of spore :D

Musings on the road

On the way home from airport now, and looking out at the singapore scenery i am once again overwhelmed by how different the lifestyle here and back in sarawak is.

I cannot decide whether i prefer the lifestyle here or in sarawak. I was sad to leave, yet i am happy to be back. But now that i am back i really hope to be able to hang on to some part of sarawak, and not just throw away everything i have learnt on the trip.

A mere five days ago i was still ignorant and unaware of this, happily going around the shopping mall looking for things to buy that are going to make me happy.

I dare to say that these five days have opened my eyes to a lot a lot of things. The problem is there is still sosososo much other things out there for me to see.

But up till the next rsp trip, i am afraid that its unavoidable for me to turn back into that not-so-blissfully ignorant and unaware person.

Kucing is not kuching, kucing is pusat

Awake at 6.15, but breakfast is at 7.30. So rare right, for me to be up earlier than necessary.

Even though i finished watching all the episodes of white collar, i keep feeling like there are more for me to watch when i go back. But there arent :( the next ep comes out like next year. You know what this is called? Its called addicted. HAVE YOU SEEN MATT BOMER'S SMILE.

Tbh i finished watching all my shows before leaving. Meaning i have nothing to watch when i go back. Howhowhow. One simply cannot be left with no shows to watch.

I guess that means rewatching. I shall start with sherlock first then move on to either tbbt or white collar. :)

The sun totally just rose while i was typing all that lol.

Chipped nail polish

The scale was off, but i didnt realise, and for 1 minute i thought i had gained 3kg over the past 2 days of rsp trip. I got shocked enough to do some pilates, right in the hotel room.

Ohohoh speaking of hotel rooms we got the bigggg one! :) 2 queen sized beds with 3 full length windows spanning two walls overlooking the river. I know i know sounds so cool rightttt.

Slacking around watching tv now. Just watched the second half of megamind and currently watching contagion. Probably gonna watch tower heist on monday night. Haha all these movies i watched around this time last year too.

I wanna do more shoppingggg.

I yearn for them to be together

I ship couples that are apparently weird/gross/only shipped by the minority.

And the above sentence is based on a single ship, but my biggest ship of all. Snamione.

Uhhuh. Severus Snape and Hermione Granger.

So far I only know one other person who ships them and 80% of the people I told responded with 'ew!' My ship started like all other ships: a single fanfic. Started out as a fatherly-daughterly relationship, but things spiraled such that they became romantically involved. I dont know if its the author or the couple, but the fanfic was super sweet and touching and the first one with more than 10 chapters that I actually finished reading. I think what drew me in was the way Snape was able to turn into a gentle confidant for Hermione at the times she needed a trustable adult by her side. Always wanted to know more about the self-sacrificial Snape beyond his cold front.

Not gonna link you; but there are so many of these out there that I think whoever cant find them deserve to be locked away.

Second biggest Harry Potter ship is Drarry. This is not that uncommon right. At least it seems so based on the fanfics and especially the pictures.

Haha these two ships have my four fav characters. Oh excluding Fred and George Weasley. The twins are so awesome that I cannot find them partners to match their level of awesomeness. So guess what. Yep, I ship the two of them together.

I completely understand if this is the last sentence you read on this post/my blog.


Moving on to xiaogui, xiaozhu and rainie yang. At first I didn't know whether to put rainie with zhu or gui, but I learnt about the things that happened while rainie and gui were together a decade ago, and now I want them back together. However what made me like zhu and gui in the first place was because of the 2008-2010 era of ylbfb, when the two of them were on screen together all the time.
Final verdict is that gui should be bi. So that he can be with both rainie and zhu at the same time. :)


This next couple I never realised I shipped until a part a brought it up. Johnlock.
Just 2 more. House and wilson. Neal and Peter.
If you do not understand why I ship these couples, please do not come back until you do.

To offer you a easy way out, youtube videos do evoke certain emotions.

Out of sight, out of mind

Been hiding my legs under jeans and pants and my stomach under t-shirts; makes me unmotivated to keep fit. No work today and tomorrow, guess I am bringing out the crops and tanks and shorts. Haha yeah thats how I try to control my weight and fats: by displaying them.

My table is at its messiest this year. Been covering up the mess with even more mess. So now its like layers of mess that I will need to spend one whole day to clear up. Haish i think that day will come at the end of the hols. In the mean time I shall take up the other tables in the house.

I took out my luggage for rsp trip. Then I stored it away again. I believe I won't start packing until Thursday night.

Been refusing to look at the assessment books stacked on my bookshelf.
Been refusing to take out my stats worksheet and chem notes.
Been refusing to even open my pencil case.




And in case you were wondering, White Collar is an awesome show.

I have been drinking a lot of water everyday

Been neglecting my blog huh.

But nothing much has been going on.

So the last time I posted was a week ago, when we won 2nd in Nationals.

Spent Sunday at wild wild wet and ikea.

Monday morning at CCA, afternoon shopping.

Tuesday morning at CmPS, afternoon shopping again.

Wednesday I didn't go out the whole day; even had my dad send lunch home.

Thursday morning I finished watching watching all the seasons of House I have managed to get my hands on, then I went shopping in the afternoon. Hey, this time it was to get Jenny a (super belated) birthday present kay. And since I was out already, might as well you know, shop.

Friday morning I started re-watching HIMYM, then Jenny's  party in the afternoon. Haha she lives in the same condo as xinyun, so I managed to get a ride to ballet. Thanks!

Its currently 17:41 on Saturday. Haven't been out the whole day, but there is ballet in half an hour, and I was kinda sorta supposed to practise an exercise before that....oops. But HIMYM from the moment I woke up till now hah.

In conclusion time is passing really slowly; I feel like the holidays had started ages ago instead of just a week ago. But next 2 weeks and 2 days will be WEP followed by RSP trip, so at least that will keep me occupied.

And no my parents are not bringing me overseas cause we couldn't agree on a place to go. But at least I will finally be able to get out of Asia next year woohoo.

Keep calm and W.I.S.H.

AHHHHHHHH ohmygod ohmygod wegotsecond ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh howdidwedoit ohmyohmyohmy wearegoingtoAMERICA OHMYGOD WE GOT SECOND.

That was all we could say while going on stage, while on stage, while going off stage, while queueing for food, while eating, while dismantling our booth.

All the time and effort and money and late nights were so worth it.

AMERICA HERE WE COME.

buhbye fats, wasn't nice knowing you at all

Motivational pictures aren't supposed to un-motivate you :(

My recent lack of exercise has been so apparent that my dad asked me to go down and run.

Reluctance. But one simply cannot ignore the layers and layers of fats slowly but surely building on.

So I went down. And started running.

Well not really running. More of jogging. Slow jogging.

You should have seen this other guy who literally had sweat dripping off him as he ran.

Back to main point. Once I got past 2km, I couldn't stop.

I had expected to run 2.4km at most, but I just kept running.

My legs were doing the same motion over and over again, to the point I wasn't even aware of it.

I let my mind wander; thought about things that happened today; thought about things that are going to happen; thought about the perks, which I had just begun reading. 

I was trying to remember too. How nice the breeze felt; the feeling of muscles getting toned up; the stability and determination of each step.

In the end my dad had to plant himself in my way before I started on yet another round. 

I think we were both shocked at how long and far I had run. 

But I think its just because the pace was so slow. 

Not trying to be skinny. Trying to be toned.

Oh gosh I feel so healthy just because I went to get myself an apple. HAHA.

Getting influenced by a lot of people to be healthier. The problem is half of me wants to be healthy but the other half is still living in delusion hoping that a bag of chips is not going too affect my body. So I am stuck in the middle. I jog I eat fruits I drink water. But I laze I eat junk I forget to drink water. Its so on off on off.

Maybe thats why my weight has not changed at all the whole of this year.

Can't get enough

Forever 21 stuff finally arrived! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sososoosososo many pieces for me to obsess over! Since they were clearing summer stock, there were so many super cheap crop and tank tops! On top of that, there was 50% off everything + free delivery! So cheap that it is unbelievable.   Somemore the time when I ordered the stuff was when my shopaholic juices were boiling fervently and I ordered so much stuff at one go!

Next week all my accessories are coming too!

So exciting to receive packages and rip them open and rip the stuff inside open and get nice surprises since I usually forget what I have ordered.

Can't wait to get my hands on the parcel coming next week.

Not entirely my fault lorh

Last week I was on the bus with zhang xuan and there was this other RGS person standing opp. us. She had on a yellow nametag and me being kaypo as always was trying to read her name. And after I managed to make out those tiny letters, I was thinking to myself: wow that is a unique spelling...but I think I have seen it before somewhere...hmmm I think I can tell her origins just based on her name...is it really this spelling or is my eyesight just failing me.

Okay on to the main point, after like 20 minutes of staring at this person but pretending to not be staring, her name suddenly went CLICK in my mind. Ohmytian isn't that a part a. OK wait wait calm down. Let me mentally match her name to her face. Wow does she look different with specs. How the pong did I not manage to recognise her at first. Oh great now she must be really creeped out by me. Lets hope she does not recognise me; I have not temped as yet anyway. And is she getting off at the same stop as me? Uh yes she is....okay calmly and slowly walk off...be cool.

Haish dont you think it is extremely fail and sad of me to not recognise my own junior :(

Caught in the rain with no extra clothes

Pounding head. Dry throat. Weak limbs. Temperature at 38.5. I guess i am sick huh.

Last night's sleep was unrestful, so I woke up a lot earlier than expected this morning. Despite the headache, I decided to watch Sherlock which  required a fair bit of brain power to follow instead of like some funny sitcom. Don't ask me why.

Ohgod now I am sure there is something wrong with me. Do you even know how long it took me to type the above. It was like type, realise I typed something wrong,  thought I deleted, realise I didnt, delete, type again, cycle repeats.

Stop judging me; be nice kay.

I shall now veer off into a completely different topic. Don't you think its so nice of me to warn you?

I think I am supposed to be utterly upset/depressed/crying over my Chem paper. Does the fact that I am not mean that I am escaping and preventing reality from sinking in; or that idgaf anymore? The sad part is, my Chem results are actually not bad when compared to my Malay results.

Okay I don't like thinking about those things. CHANGE TOPIC.

To all of you reading this post and my blog, do you really have nothing better to do than stalk me? I am not an inspirational blogger who would come up with meaningful like philosophies; I am not a celebrity blogger who would garner a lot more views; I am not a fame/money-seeking blogger who would do ads all day and hope to become famous.

And even if you really want to stalk me, there is nothing much here.

While my stomach rumbles

I finished all the shows on my com. Everything is still too fresh in my mind to rewatch.

So I went running. For the first time in at least a month. I kid you not. Ran a longer distance than I expected to, but it was a slow run.

Even though eyas have been over for 5 days, and there was no school these 5 days, I have yet to be able to catch up on my sleep. Eye bags and dark circles are still there. Not pretty :( And they are quite severe. Even concealers can't conceal them, which is quite sad, since you know, concealing is the only job of a concealer...

Okay I shall go sleep.

I want a knit top

Whew past few days were packed. And all the free time I had I spent watching shows and reading a book, in a bid to enjoy at least a bit of 'me time'. Btw, zhang xuan thanks for recommending Sherlock. AWESOME.

Not prepared to get back results at all. These past few days have been like an escape from reality and so many things going on leave no space for thinking about results and GPs and GPA and wtv else.

Tried to clean up my room, but once again, surface cleaning. The files only look neat because they are arranged in one row, but inside, all the worksheets and notes are jumbled up and messed up and screwed up. And its so easy to hide an unsightly closet by simply closing the doors.

I have a feeling the stamina is so bad now that I can't even run 2.4km without stopping. And since I haven't actually went to test it out yet, I don't know whether its true. Everyday I have been telling myself that I should go jog, but everyday that doesn't happen.

Sighpie.

Jumbled up

The bubble has burst. Oops. Spent 3 hours with platmates, having lunch and chilling at starbucks. Been a long time since I felt so relaxed. And the journey home was perfect. There was no waiting time and although the weather had stared getting cloudy midway it only started raining the moment I got home. So obviously I took a nap. This morning my eyes were hurting cause my eye bags were huge and the under circles were so dark they looked bruised.

My right hand is still hurting slightly. Fortunately there are no more papers that require essay writing or huge chunks of words.

Somehow I was imagining post-eya period to be super free and nothing going on. But nope, a lot of things to deal with. Right after the end of papers tomorrow we are meeting to discuss about orienteering comp, then friday will be eaten up by cmps and ballet. In fact, I think I am expected to spend a lot of time on ncc, cmps and ballet. However, i will still find time to slack. Obviously.

Bad news come with good news that come with bad news

It is only Tuesday. The second day of the week. Why does it feel like this week has been going on for so long already.

Oh I know why. Maybe because there was no such thing as a weekend. And since a week ago every night was just cramming info and more info and hoping they will just stay there and if they don't, there will at least be this moment of enlightenment during the paper and cursing all those people with a photographic memory. Then the following afternoon would be spent trying to empty the brain of all the previous subjects and cramming new info in.

The good news is, tomorrow will be last day of doing that. For this whole entire year.

The sad thing is, next year will be even worse.

Who needs chem when this exists

OMG one of the first songs of his that I got addicted to. Just now when it came on, I totally got addicted again.

What is this nonsense

Ah shit it just dawned on me that after thurs will be a 6-days long holiday. Now that bubble is really bubbling. And keeping me awake.

Good day to you, future me

So, if you have noticed, I have been posting short posts. And rather frequently, compared to usually. And I have noticed that this is something I like to do during the eya period. Last year was updating my facebook, but this year is updating my blog. Because facebook is just not my thing. I wonder is these posts will make any sense to me in the future.

Yeah, this is published

I don't like having drafts. They are just so incomplete. And when you go back to complete a draft, the feeling now and then is not the same, so the whole post will just be ll weird and disjointed. Not good.

I obviously don't have my priorities sorted out right now

There is this bubble in me. It is taking a lot of effort to keep this bubble from bursting. In fact, a bit has burst already. The longer I keep it intact and inside, the bigger the burst is going to be. Which would actually be a good thing if only it doesnt burst before noon on thursday. And once it really does burst, I think the aftereffects would last way longer that they are supposed to. We will see how that goes.

But first there are still 7 more papers. Less than 4 days, come on!

My attention span is longer than a goldfish's

Stocked up on junk food that is supposed to last me the next 3 days. The challenge is to actually make them last that long. I will exercise after eyas end kay. Maybe. I think. I hope. I definitely should.

Abnormality

The word FRINGE seems so weird all of a sudden. I was googling about fringes and it just started being weird. It looks weird, its spelling its weird, its pronunciation is weird. And thinking about it feels weird.  WHATS HAPPENING.

It has gotten to the point where even my mum doesn't know whether to cry or laugh at my sheer lousiness in solving trigo, log and expo equations and my unpreparedness for tomorrow.

I have nothing for you