Yesterday afternoon while I was dying of heat in the COI holding room, apparently a lot of things happened.
Things that truly surprised me.
And not necessarily in a good way.
I realise that its one thing to judge strangers on the surface, but another to just make assumptions on people I have known for more than just a few years.
People change. And people grow. But as we gain more knowledge, its inevitable for things to become more complicated.
A lot of times when people come to me with their problems, I feel inadequate. I tell myself its okay if I cannot offer a solution. Maybe all they need is a listening ear and someone to care and love them.
But is that really enough? Merely listening?
I think deep down I know that's not enough. That I should somehow find a solution.
Even if I don't have faith in myself, I trust us. We are supposed to be the strongest. Even if the results are saying otherwise, I believe this last spurt is all they need.
I just need them to gain back the confidence they had at the beginning of the year, the confidence that I would never even have dared to possess, the confidence that assured us so much, the confidence that no goal was unachievable.
I don't know where their confidence has gone to, or even where their hearts and souls have gone to. Hopefully, that was just a temporary thing.
And even though we don't say it or necessarily show it, they really mean a lot to us. They are all we are going to have, and we want to leave feeling satisfied.