Monday, December 31, 2012

This shall be my last post for 2012

Goodbye 2012! Overall, you have been an awesome year! Muacks!

I have no idea how to spend the last hour of 2012

I have already been on youtube the entire night, and right now I am...blogging.

Seriously though, I am just thinking about so many things that I could have done during the hols but didnt and being all like 'its too late now'. You know how people usually get upset thinking about stuff like that...but not me. I'm all like well if I had done those stuff then I would be regretting not doing the things that I really did, so theres really no point thinking about this point at all.

Tonight is soooo chilly. Here I am wearing a sweater and thick shorts, yet still getting chills. Funny thing is I only realised that like half an hour ago, after I decided to turn off my aircon to save electricity.

I really need to get a life. Or just get to a party.

On a windy night

Its gonna be 2013 in 1hour and 20 mins, and guess what. I AM STUCK AT HOME.

Okay originally I was supposed to go to the airport with my parents to fetch my cousins, but apparently they have a lot of luggage so there won't be enough space for me in the car. And their flight was originally supposed to land in the afternoon but it got delayed by 6 hours to 2130. I was fine with that, cause there would be more than enough time for them to fetch them back then come back to get me so we could all countdown together. But then boofreakinhoo its currently 2230 and their flight still hasnt landed yet.

Moreover, I have been forbidden to leave the house to go join any parties since its apparently too 'chaotic'. You see where this leaves me?

I may end up having to count down on my own.

That would be quite an important moment though; the first new year I am spending alone.


Huh so I have just written a letter to future me. So different from what I usually do. But I guess the best person to tell your 'secrets' to is yourself?

Whilst writing the letter I realised I am not one to display my emotions. In fact, sometimes they are hidden so well that even I don't realise they are there, much less confront them.

Anyways, I have been living this past week being confused about what day it is, since I have been out most of the time and on the days I am home, BOTH my parents took leave, and don't forget all the christmas and new year holidays. That has resulted in me not being able to comprehend (until I happened to glance at the date) that today is the last day of 2012 and school begins in 2 days' time.

You know what would be appropriate right now? A bunch of vulgarities.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Why do things like that keep happening?

The scale was off AGAIN. So for days I have been worrying about going past the maximum weight I will allow myself to get to just to realise nothing has changed.

And I believe I need to stop thinking about my weight. My goal is not to be skinny, its to be fit and toned. Gotta keep reminding myself that. Healthy food is better than no food. Water is better than diet soda. Abs are better than sucking in the pooch.

On a completely different note, this song has been stuck in my head ever since I watched the latest ep of HIMYM.

They say I'm open, but am I really?

I wasn't gonna blog about this, but I really think I should.

So the reason why I was home so late was because I was hanging out with 6R people. Or should I say, 2 dudes.

Hahah the 'gathering/outing' was so fail. We originally plan to go wcp, but it started raining so we decided to watch movie instead. So

9 of us turned up
8 of us watched Jack Reacher
6 of us had Subway
5 of us went to hobo under mrt station
6 of us continued hoboing
3 of us hoboed a bit more then went to macs to sit and talk crap

Although in the end it was just the 3 of us talking about weird stuff and gossiping about ex-classmates, it was still so nice catching up and just chillin.

I can't believe i almost didn't go. Li Ren was smsing me the previous day during lion dance and I was so distracted by the stupid gong that I said yes. Thought about backing out last min, but I felt like I was obliged to go, so I went lorh. With the mindset that we were just gonna watch a movie and have a meal together at most. 

Never would I have expected to spend almost 3 hours after that talking to my ex-classmates whom I weren't even that close to, and there were no boundaries at all. Being classmates for 3 years sort of cancelled out the not seeing one another for 3 years part. Thanks guys, for being so amazing. It was seriously damn cool.

Omg we need to have more gatherings like that, but with everybody. I was reminded that there were 45 peeps in 6R. 45!!! Lets not be so pathetic kay, lets all be cool people :)

Now that I think about it, 315 hasn't had a single class outing before. Hahah at least we will all be back together as 415 in a few days time :D

Or maybe they just cant be bothered

For 2 consecutive nights I have reached home later than 2300. Pretty late for me, especially since I had to travel home alone. 

But it has led to the realization of how much freedom my parents have given me.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Really hooked

Okay lets all take a moment and look at this face

ARE YOU SEEING HIS FACE. Of course you are. Just look at that SMILE and those EYES.
That brought my fangirl level to 20%.

And this brought it to 50%.

Identical twins!!!!

Its a not-so-true fact that I am not that shallow to judge a book by its cover. Butbutbut just watch their videos! This one is the first one that got me hooked. Like a 100%.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

You know why if I turn up with puffy eyes tomorrow

The longer I lie here staring into the dark, unable to fall asleep, the more scared and worried and overwhelmed I get.

This feeling is not unfamiliar, but it is very very unpleasant.

It makes me want to...cry. I think. And have a breakdown. Or is it called a meltdown? Whatever. Both.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Under the mistletoe

Well he is considerably younger than my darlings. And this song is especially and amazingly suitable now.

So sweet <3

Sarcasm is fun, til it gets mean

3am in the morning, no one for me to rant to :( Seriously guys, its barely even nighttime!

But its ok, sleep early wake early. I totally understand.

Ya that is how sarcastic I usually am. Not very, I know. Point is, I have just witnessed some amazing sarcasm. Even though I am on the side of the receiving end, I couldn't help but admire your work. Its a whole new level of sarcasm, a level so high only the true masters can reach. Oh, and since we are all here to learn, I wikepedia-ed 'sarcasm' and they quoted Thomas Carlyle "Sarcasm is the language of the devil".

Now now, if you are reading this, which you really shouldn't be doing since you are so rule-abiding  and full of reasoning and truly believe in everything including shit taught to you, but I digress. In case you have decided to break a particular rule because you know no one will find out you have broken since you are behind that device of yours, then you are probably breaking down every sentence and word here and thinking that I am no better than you since this entire post is in sarcasm too.

Well guess what, I've got news for you. I could never reach your level even if I wanted to. Its simply too...whats the word..evil and bitchy and egotistical and just plain mean.

I don't understand. Why must you ALWAYS do this? Neither party has anything to gain. And I know you think you can, but the truth is, you CANNOT always get what you want. Would it really hurt so much to let go of certain things? This whole time we have been trying to find that rainbow at the end of  the storm, but you simply refuse to let go of those thunder and lightning and keep dragging over more clouds.

Oh and the boss has spoken "为什么要做得那么绝"

Dude, 2012 is not over yet

I dare say this holiday is NOT a well-deserved break. It has helped me realise how much a slacker I have been this whole entire year. Since I am basically doing the same stuff: internet + my shows + a teeny bit of work, except with more sleep.

Obviously this does not come as a surprise to me, and obviously I need to do something about it. I know kay, it does not evade me that in less than 3 weeks, it will be the start of my last year of secondary school. I am aware that in less than 3 weeks, it will be 2013. And yes, it has been brought to my attention that in 2013,  I will have to sit for my o levels; I will have to be a NCO; I will have to go to internationals; I will have to take my ballet exam; I will have to give a heck about my GPA. Damn it, I do not need to be reminded that i am going to be 16 and an IC-carrier (sidenote: not having to sneak in to NC16 movies anymore (y)).

Do you get my point? LESS THAN 3 WEEKS. I still have 2 weeks and 4 days. 

Friday, December 7, 2012

Problem is, I am not the only one

I have become a cynical ass. Refusing to believe the existence of non-judgmental, non-racist, non-discriminative people. Thinking all actions come with motives. Unable to embrace everything that comes across my path.