Happy thoughts :)

Every week is cray week. So much happening too fast!!

Ohgosh I feel so bipolar.
Cannot make up my mind about how I feel, but I know I can't let go of my optimism.

Take me back to primary school

Can't remember the last time i went home when the sun was still up. 

Its currently 1pm and it feels sososososo nice to be on the bus, headphones plugged in, sun high up in the sky, the whole afternoon stretching out ahead mmmmm 

I think Tuesdays are now my favourite school days :)

"It is so easy to forget how precious it is to be alive"

Hair for Hope on friday was damn intense. I have soooooo much admiration for everyone who shaved their heads, especially all the girls OMG all of you are such beautiful humans.

class!

 

HAHAHAHHA we just stood there and waited for someone to ask if we wanted a photo HAHAHAHHA

Since when did it get so hard to smile

I don't think I have ever ever felt as low as I did today. All the pent-up stress and fustrations. The cui-ness of school and life. Feeling so damn alone. Dreading and counting down. The general sadness lingering in the air.

Ugh.

I felt so empty, and had sambal fish w curry for dinner so that the spice will at least fill up my tummy. And just so I could add on stomach burn to my heart ache. Thank god for understanding friends; don't know what I would do without them. I took the red line home from Bishan to Bt Batok, one nice long empty train ride. I thought so much, and talked a little. Hahahha actually its quite funny looking back now, when 2 ppl who are both feeling damn shitty just keep sighing at and for each other. Still, its always nice to know there's another person who's got your back :)

I did what I always do when things get overwhelming: a long sweaty jog can never go wrong. But I think today I didn't run long enough, or hard enough, or maybe it was just the spicy food.

Still can't get over it.

Eating is essential to living

Phew finally able to go for a jog without formulas and facts swimming about in my head. Today I just let my mind wander, and it felt like such a nice escape.

Post-CTs weekend break is half over (BREAK TOO SHORT WALAO). Crazy crazy week. but at least I only had to wake up early twice. Exam week also means A LOT of stress eating. And here are  some of the nicer food in order of being eaten.

Green apple SOGURT on Tuesday. When I went to the pool after my brain died from morning physics paper.

Banana waffle at CBTL on wednesday. When I tried to study chem. WHICH WAS USELESS CAUSE THE PAPER WAS THE HARDEST PAPER I HAVE EVER SAT FOR.

After chem when we lost all hope for passing any subject. So we went to udders and pigged out.

POST-CTs CELEBRATION at Old School WOOOHOOO. Went there with the gang and guess what my half my class came trooping in OOPS.

We think we cute CAUSE WE REALLY CUTE :)

SOGURT again HAHAHA. We went at around 4 and the next time I looked at the time is was already 7?!?! SO CONTENTED :)

Then yesterday while nua-ing in the canteen, kelly was watching Autumn's Concerto AND NOW I AM SO ADDICTED. and holy shit vanness wu damn hot how did i not know of his existence.

Stay-at home-cation

For the past week I have distanced myself from the real world. Sort of like going overseas but not really?

The only people I went out with besides my parents were my cousins. Quite grateful for all our little getaways actually. We watched Maleficent and had pepper lunch, been bowling twice and to the trampoline park twice.

My campsite AKA coffee bean is under going renovation so I had to find a new place to sit for long hours so that I can be just a bit more productive than being on youtube all day long at home. And change is good. oh yes it is. LOOK AT THIS NEW PLACE I FOUND. I can't believe I haven't been spending every free moment here. ITS DAMN LEGIT.

paradise within walking distance

ALSO SOGURT <3

I feel like I have been on a one-week vacation, minus the dance lessons and sleeping on my own bed. But I guess its back to reality tmr  today.

Fill your heart with LOVE

So thankful for June hols.

I have been thinking a lot (mostly when I should be STUDYING OH WELL).
About all the decisions I have made,
all the choices I am going to have to make,
trying to confront my emotions but realising I am really really unsure,
how the heck does one find a balance between work and play,
looking back at all the wonderful memories made in Raffles,
feeling so damn nostalgic,
but realizing majority of those whom I love are still by my side,
being really thankful for all the constants,
and reminding myself to appreciate everything and everyone.



Alrighty, in other words, I am REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to watch TFIOS. Tbh, I didn't really feel very strongly about the book, but I guess all the hype has gotten me damn excited. AND THE TRAILER OH MY GOD THE TRAILER!!!! I think we're going to be a mess during the movie but its just so beautiful and tragic.

Idk but recently I had had such a different outlook on love. As in true romantic love. I think its from seeing it land upon those around me that has made me realise how FREAKING SWEET AND ADORABLE that such pure innocent love can be AWWWWHHH <3

oh wow JC life

Term 2 was epic. FUCKING EPIC.

The day I turned SEVENTEEN

IM GONNA TALK ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY because it was legit BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

My darling's midnight wish totally made my whole day! I'm even more damn grateful for you, darling <3

School got off to a sweet start cause of Chewy Juniors from TMY!!! Can't believe we have spent 4+++ years together THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING :)

Then morning celebration with the ALWAYS AMAZING FAMily+415.

<3

DA GANG! (sorry excuse morning small eyes)

First lesson was PE but it was gym-ming so ok la. LOL the girls started singing birthday song in the middle of our treadmill workout HAHA we are 2cool4skool.
Shoutout to Blazer my birthday twin! At least I didn't feel old on my own.

I feel honoured being in your facebook dp

Then lessons lessons blahblahblah. Assembly was quite joke it was some Chinese Orchestra session, and my CO classmate was just sleeping but Mantou's texts were like OMG I KNOW THIS SONG hahahahaha.

During lunch I talked with so many people cause my birthday balloon was an eye-catcher HEHE THANKS GUYS.
And thennn my day got even sweeter cause COOKIES! Thanks la :)

Fatness concealed in a pretty box

CCA prac with less than half the people cause everyone else was going for dancefeste. It turned out to be more like a drama class? I CAN'T ACT HELP.
Another shoutout to my other birthday twin Way! The first year we knew each other we were turning 13, and now are 17 (I REALLY FEEL VERY OLD)

What happened after CCA and before dinner was so confusing. I think they wanted to watch abit of dancefeste before leaving, but then the emcee was like WE GONNA LOCK THE DOORS YO so we had to zao before anything legit even started. I didn't really get what was going on HAHAHA just followed the crowd. And KEEP CALM AND TAKE PHOTOS.

KYM I miss you guys (btw I love this order such symmetry :P)

Dinner at Swensens with the OG YAY. It was damn fun and hilarious :D Except my flowers got abit squashed (DON'T WORRY guys my mum managed to revive them).

Chicken teriyaki pasta (mum say must eat noodles this counts right)

We moved up to rooftop and kelly and clarissa my bbys came to join :) Another round of celebration with angry birds cake! Jackie damn fail though he wanted to face-smash the cake as revenge for me whip-creaming his face last time, but his plan SUCKED and it never came through thank god.

MAY MY WISHES COME TRUE :)

The late-night survivors

I LOVE THIS PHOTO CAUSE EVERYONE LOOKS SO HAPPY :D

IT WAS SUCH A LOVELY DAY AND I FELT SO LOVED AND I LOVE EVERYONE THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING

MUACKS.
(But is everyone in on a mission to get me fat, cause cupcakes & chewy juniors & cakes & ice cream)

Confused

Walao what sort of shitty mood have I been in this whole night.
NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT AND EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG :(

This is not the way to spend my last few hours of being 16. EEEEEEEEEEEE a 17 year old wouldn't spend her time being upset over little things. Time is too precious for that. Okay I shall change my mindset by the next hour :)

FANTABULOUS FEBRUARY

JC life is so hectic omg. SO MANY PEOPLE SO MANY LESSONS SO MANY EVENTS. Its quite overwhelming actually I dont even know what Im staying back for everyday. IS GOSSIP SESSION LEGIT REASON??? HAHAHA but damn fun la :)

I cant remember half the stuff that has happened CAUSE EVERYDAY IS SUPER HAPPENING.

But I shall try...

I am proud to announce my OG is still alive! We have a morning table hahaha but everybody comes damn late.

First OG birthday celebration was a success. WHIPPED CREAM!!!! I think we have excellent planning and coordination HAHAHA jackie was so unsuspecting.

That day of external activities was super hilarious

OG! Idk what we are pointing at?

During Take5 when we had a picnic!
And I became fat cause cookies with 2 sticks of butter.

DURING MT HOUSE PARTY
And I became even fatter cause free chewy junior and snacks

Next up, my new class! That takes lots of selfies everywhere. AND WE ARE GOING TO OPHIR.

the 10 girls of S06G :)
And the boys still having PE :)

We went to the library just to take selfies.
Also, caitlin is the official class selfie taker.

PIZZA PARTY WHEEEEE
HOW FAT AM I GONNA BECOME

I keep meeting new people cause friends of friends of friends will reunite in the canteen or somewhere in the humongous school.

BUT. Old friends are HERE TO STAY!

With the gang during take5

But its getting hard to take complete picture:(

ALL MY DARLINGS <3 

Entre group back at RG
The new pinafore colour is urgh

NOW FOR THE NON-PEOPLE pics:

Sunday brunch from last week YUM 

I FELL ON MY KNEE AGAIN. IT WAS  DAMN BAD WALAO.  It has taken 3 weeks to heal siannnn

I posted this on We Heart It and it got like 400 likes HAHAHA such a hipster

I have been induced

Soooo JIP is officially over! It has been a fun-filled 2 weeks, and I think its one of those times I am gonna look back upon and miss so dearly cause it was so carefree and casual.


There is never a lonely moment with my 415 darlings around:
-A mob of people following Jasmine and Nigel to the RI canteen
-Insta-noodles resulting in WA war but ending with us playing frisbee

-Being the most frequent customers of the minimart
-Supporting each other at CCA trials

This was at the floorball trial of nat and clarissa

-the MOST EVENTFUL DINNER EVER at Swensens celebrating the Koh bdays (okay this story cannot go untold. The waitress and carrying a tray with like 4 drinks, the tray wobbled, all the drinks spilled over our table and poor val, the glass smashed all over the floor, val's plate literally broke into half, we were given 10% discount)

Chicken baked rice

Free birthday ice-cream (you know where to find me on my bday)

BEST CLASS EVER gonna miss them sosososo much :(


CCA trials are really competitive and scary this year. I was all prepared to just join rec badminton cause slack+fun! But I went with Jenny to audition for mod dance and somehow I got in?! HAHA everyone I have told was damn surprised like that is so unexpected. SIAN WHERE IS THE FAITH GUYS. Ok fine I didn't expect myself to make it either but I suppose there is a reason I am still doing ballet after all these years. I had a huge dilemma between dance and hockey. I hope I am making the right decision. 


Been meeting primary school friends on the mrt cause we are all westies. And damn cute a bunch of them who stay at lakeside will go to school tgt in the morning and sometimes I will bump into them and its always nice to have company. The school is SO FREAKING HUGE though I still haven't met some of the ex-classmates.


Also, I went back to visit my first workplace where I was paid :D Hehe ya it was at Don pie. I am not trying to advertise but seriously so yumzzzz. Can you believe it though liren had 2 pies all on his own, in the same span of time I took to finish my FAV PIE.

Black Pepper Chicken Pie

Today is Day 1 of CNY but Im gonna put that in a separate post cause I like things to be relevant.

We are ASSHOLES

14 Jan 1111PM
Let the last day before school starts be a good one :)

Today i had 5 hours of sleep, cause sleeping on someone else's floor is really uncomfortable. But moving on, we decided to go to jc-hopping! At least gillian and steph did HAHA I just went to hcjc. The funniest part it GILLIAN AND I WERE WEARING RAFFLES SHIRTS. IN HWACHONG. Like even jenny was embarrassed for us.

DAMN FUNNY the tour guide was like "hey raffles! Is this a troll thing?"

But seriously the only reason I wanted to go was *ahem*gillian's boyboy* but that didn't even happen. At first, the 4 of us were sitting in the open area playing cards, then we left jenny at some chess booth, and then gillian saw her friends, and steph followed her, and i was left alone :(

OK I am really glad for friends cause michelle and liren came to find me (DO YOU KNOW HOW EASY IT IS TO GET LOST). Hehehe met some 6R people who have never come out before. I had to literally go to their school to finally see them after 5 years.

I tried participating in their cca discussions (but not like i am really transferring there right i mean even though it is a legit cool school i have already bought my rj uniform) but I really really have no idea what cca i want to consider. SO HARD. do i have no interests? :(

AND BTW do you know how many buses from hc go to my house? 4! Instead of one measly bus that gets stuck in traffic all the time to ri.

I think this is first time this hols I am going to bed before midnight. Fun fact of the day: I had a mango for dinner. BUT DAMN IT WAS SUCH A DELICIOUS MANGO.

SCHOOL, GO AWAY

Last week of my hols BOOOOHOOOO.

Monday feels like such a long time ago but its actually just 5 days! Woke up at noon, SUPER HUNGRY, no food at home, thus ended up at my go-to cafe CBTL.

Tim Ho Wan with the primary school peeps for dimsum YUM YUM. Price is quite legit the 5 of us spent $60, although maybe its cause I ate a lot oops. Paris Baguette for even more afternoon snacks cause WE PIGS YO. But ohgosh finally tried their pudding <3 <3 <3

Went to the library with the intention to study, but Instagram was super distracting. And if you are living under a rock, GO FOLLOW MY INSTAGRAM. My P6 cousin has over a THOUSAND followers! AHHEM PART As AHHEM.

TYPO SALE AT WESTGATE. TYPO SALEEEEE. Bought presents for the 3 bday girls. And there was this pillow I was intending to get for Kelly, but then I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT and got another for myself (well done me what happened only spending money on legit necessary stuff, but in my defense it is really really cute). I love staying at the west now.

Tuesday 

Combined surprise bday celebration for kelly gillian cynthia at marina barrage. FUN DAY.

HAHA in the morning a lot of us were late so we were trying to stall the bday girls. Like randomly asking cynthia to go buy chips and making kelly leave late. 

Cynthia still came on time though and OMG while we were waiting for kelly we ran into thengyi! Like she didn't know the other group would be there as well HAHAHA thengyi super cool though she just walked past without saying anything AND CYNTHIA WAS SO HURT. 

Also eileen is damn good at stalling gillian so that she won't bump into us. Like she got off at a wrong stop, then pretended she had to use the toilet, legit used the toilet, and went on the new blue mrt line for fun.

OK PICS ARE ON FB AND INSTA. IM LAZY TO REUPLOAD HERE. BUT IN SUMMARY, SUPER FUN DAY. 

Although I completely ran out of cash. And I still owe people money. On a brighter note, people owe me money too.

Wednesday was the third day in a row not eating at home at all.  Lunch with platmates (THEY HAVE A CREPE STALL AT FAR EAST AND ITS DELICIOUS), went back to RGS cause we are bored kids with nothing to do. THE SUN WAS BURNING so we escaped to the library and laughed at poor juniors having school. LIKE WHAT IS SCHOOL EVEN. Moved to squash court and crashed the B NCOS' meeting. 

Then since I was already in orchard so just nice go buy uniform. Jio-ed Jasmine (CAUSE IM A GOOD FRIEND ARENT I) and gillian came along too. I dislike buying fitted clothes cause SUPER DEMORALISING but ohwell motivation to not get fat. Then we went bag-hunting cause jasmine's bag broke :( 

Yoshinoya for dinner was my first time in DAYS eating veggies. But whats the point when we ended up at EWF for fries. Dear Jasmine, I hope we didn't ruin the special memory you have with a special someone at that special place. 

Thursday the primary school people decided to go out again but that day just felt like a very home-based day so I stayed home the whole day. But HEY I did go to subway for lunch, and met Michelle there! Such a surprise cause I was expecting her to be with the rest. 

The rest of the day was spent re-watching Sherlock season 1. And then tumblring after that.

FAVOURITE SCENE

FEELS FEELS FEELS

OH MY GOD IM NOT OKAY

The point I’m trying to make is that I am the most unpleasant… rude, ignorant, and all around obnoxious asshole that anyone could possibly have the misfortune to meet. I am dismissive of the virtuous, unaware of the beautiful, and uncomprehending in the face of the happy. So if I didn’t understand I was asked to be best man it is because I never expected to be anybody’s best friend. Certainly not the best friend of the bravest, and kindest and the wisest human being I have ever had the good fortune of knowing. John, I am a ridiculous man. Redeemed only by the warmth and constancy of your friendship.

-Sherlock Holmes, in The Saddest Quote Ever The Sign of Three

I LEGIT CRIED AT THIS SCENE

Friday was uneventful. Spent the day clearing out my room and working out. Ran to the Bukit Gombak stadium to run one round on the track and then ran all the way back again HAHA super pointless route next time I shall be more adventurous. 

Saturday 

Edusave awards was um okay. The organisers were trying to get the awardees to applaud but all the older people in the back rows didn't even flinch a muscle HAHAHA. But super cool though its held at this hardcourt area so its literally right at my house.

I have no idea when I started blogging by days but well I guess this is what I do now?