Why Am I Waiting?

“Why are we waiting? Why are we waiting?”
Sudden urge to sing this song. Teacher is taking a long long time to send us some documents. Thats why I am posting.

Previous post was my commonwealth essay. I think I will dedicate more posts to posting up my works. But,EVERYTHING IS COPYRIGHTED BY ME! Spent like one afternoon and night rushing in out. Right before the due date.

Will be posting up my poem written for Lit AA next.

3 SAs are over! Yeah. Still have 2 AAs and 1 PT and I am sure some more are coming.

Girl Power! Because we can

She glanced out of her window, despite all efforts trying to concentrate. The crescent moon was hanging in the sky, not a star was in sight. The annoying cries of a wailing baby and the occasional barking sounds were disturbing her. A light was still on in one of the rooms of the unit right opposite hers. Maybe another poor student burning the midnight oil trying to finish the homework that never seemed to have an end, she thought to herself. She could see the television of another unit still blaring silently; probably a football frantic watching the ever-so-boring game; or maybe a tired housewife trying to keep tabs on a midnight drama after spending the day running after her children; or a night-shift worker who had just reached home and wanted to catch a break,; it might also be a lonely grandpa having trouble falling asleep; oh! Or maybe it is…

Ring! Ring! Ring! She started awake, almost falling out of her seat, having fallen asleep in front of her desk. She looked at the time, groaned, and let her head fall back onto the table. She had meant to finish at least finish her Mathematics homework, but that did not seem to be in the range of possibility now. Oh well, she would just have to skip recess, or she could always pretend that she had forgotten to bring it to school. Grudgingly, she pushed herself up from the hard and uncomfortable wooden table. How she longed to crawl under that warm cover neatly laid out neatly on her soft and cushy bed and fall back into her sweet dreams.

But that was not to be. As always, she rushed through her morning routine. A piece of bread hurriedly stuffed into her mouth would have to make do as breakfast as she made her way out of the house, almost tiptoeing trying not to make noise. Her parents were still asleep; she had not seen them last night as she had locked herself in her room trying to concentrate on her studies. Actually, come to think of it, she had barely communicated with her parents except maybe once or twice the standard questions “Have you eaten?” and “Have you finished your homework” and the standard answer “Yes.” Were her parents showing her too little care, or did they think she was responsible and independent enough?

There were too many thoughts and worries in her mind to ponder too much about this question. The most urgent one was her Mathematics homework; would she be disciplinarily punished if she did not complete it on time? Surely not, it was just a few measly sheets of paper stapled together. The worst would be scolded in front of the class. But still, that would be embarrassing, especially since Joel, the cute guy with the brownest eyes and the most dazzling smile, had transferred to her Mathematics class. Her brain was full of algebra and operation signs and cute boys as she made her way towards the school gate.

Oh, how she dreaded that step into the school campus every morning. The momentary pause a step right before the school gate occurred every time, then the continuation of brisk walking. She needed to get to class fast. Maybe she could squeeze in a little bit of time for the Mathematics homework. Or not. She sighed softly and secretly as she saw a chatty group of friends approaching her, eager to engulf and engage her in their conversation. They exchanged juicy gossips, complained about the homework and made fun of their classmates and teachers. She did not know why she did not just walk away from those people, but she felt like she had to put on a brave front to everyone. Perhaps she was so insecure inside that she did not dare to let it show, and that she just wanted to be able to fit in with everyone else.

She barely had enough time to put down her things before the bell for morning assembly reverberated throughout the school. Students and teachers everywhere put down their things at hand and dashed for the parade square. She moved her lips silently to the national anthem, not a sound coming out from her. She day-dreamed of Joel as morning assembly carried on. In a flash, she was being pushed and shoved by herds of students who were rushing for no apparent reason, since there was still fifteen minutes till lessons began. She might as well make good use of this rare spare time. Fishing out her Mathematics homework from the realms of her messy schoolbag, she started working. Her Math had never been good; even though she could practically hear her brain juice churning, she still yielded no answer. Finally, “Ah! I give up! Wrong answers are better than no answers, so I shall just guess some numbers and write it there. I swear I will do the next Mathematics homework properly.” She mused to herself.

The morning passed by in a blur. First the Geography teacher had come in late to an unrest and noisy class; then the petite Social Studies teacher who had tried unsuccessfully to quite down the boisterous class. Both had assigned heaps and mountains of homework. It looked like it was going to be another long and late night. Following right after that was Physical Education, during which she came in last in the race and did not even bother to chase after the tennis ball. Finally, it was recess. She bought a pack of Oreo cookies yet again, snuffled it down, then retreated back to the classroom. She did not need to hang around to have people keep on coming to her and asking “Come and join our table!” to which she would always shake her head politely and say that she had already made other plans; or see flaunting couples sharing their food blatantly. Plus, she could attempt to come up with correct answers to the Math questions, killing more brain cells at the same time.

In the end, it turned out that less than three-quarters of her Math class had actually bothered to finish the homework. She felt cheated, those wasted time coming up with ridiculous answers could have been better used catching up on sleep. However, the few words of praise awarded from the teacher for finishing her work was enough to makes amends. Especially since Joel was within earshot during that time. And that he had given her a slight smile when their eyes had met.

She lived in dreamland for the rest of the lessons, replaying that scene over and over again as though her mind was a faulty videotape. Such that she did not hear a word of what the teachers’ said, not knowing what was going on in class. When the school bell rang for the end of school, she snapped out of her reverie and hurriedly copied the homework form her desk mate, before rushing off. This time from school, to piano lesson. She loved music. Music clamed her mind when she was angry. Music made her happy when she was feeling down. Music took up the space in her mind when she was feeling lonely.

She played the pieces she had been dutifully practicing at home for her teacher. When she was playing the piano, she let herself be fully absorbed into it. Her body swayed to the rhythm, her fingers moved across the keyboards fluently, looking like they had lives of their own. It was as though only she alone existed in the whole world. She, the only child of two proud parents. She, a successful secondary school student. She, the person whom everyone dreamed of being friends with. She, who would one day grow up and achieve the extraordinary. She, a girl, a lady, a woman. A female. The music she played was beautiful. Just like she is.

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Reach for the stars; Even if you fail, you will land on the clouds

I am now in this small little cupboard beneath the whiteboard of my classroom. It is cold and raining outside. One of the reasons why I came inside here in the first place. I may not have the freedom to move around so much, but at least I don't feel constricted.

People outside are now discussing Lit aa and chinese file. Aw, man. We have 4 AAs in total, but I have only done 1 and a half. Need to chiong!

Will post more from here. Bye!

We are all young at heart

YAY! First post with Mac! YAY! I think I this is really overdue, but who cares! I was waiting for a special occasion to do this post. And it is finally here.

Yesterday was 5th March. Yes, it was my birthday. And RGS's birthday. SO COOL RITE ?!?!?!? Went to school for founders day. This year the speeches were actually really entertaining. I actually listened to every speaker carefully, especially the G-O-H. She wasn't reading from a script, which made her seem so sincere and warming. Furthermore, the way she speaks just seem to attract attention. And the ex-principals were really lively and bubbly, even though they are not that young.

Founder's Day ended early enough, such that when I arrived at Jurong Point the restaurant wasn't even open yet. Had this super huge bowl of ramen that was SIMPLY SCRUMPILICIOUS and my favourite mango pudding. Following that, mum bought me a chocolate mousse cake, super uber duper nice. OMG! At this rate I am going to become FAT. Must go running today.

Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes. I love you guys. I am officially 14 years old. Man, that is really scary. OK, I shall start on my homework after slacking for the whole Friday afternoon, yesterday and this morning.

Bye,
says the person who is 14 years and 1 day old. :)

The Glass is Half-full, Not Half-empty

The Holidays are not even here yet, tons of homework are already coming in. Let me list them down (according to due date):
1. Lit AA
2. Commonwealth Essay
3. Bio PT
4. English PT

They may seem little, but they are actually A LOT, because 3 of them actually count towards the GPA. Today while eating KFC with mummy at West Mall, this huge feeliing of anxiousness suddenly came over me, and it was about homework. Like why was I eating KFC idly when I had not started on my homework yet. PMS much?

On a happier note, tomorrow is Be Yourself Day and I have decided to go dressed as my...(drumroll please)...MUMMY! YES, I LOVE YOU MUMMY! :DDD <<<<<3333333 Actually quite looking forward to being PT ic tomorrow. Have my leadership qualities finally decided to surface again. I surprise myself.

Can't wait for Saturday. YOU should know why. A hint: It is 5th March. :)

answerless arrogant attitude

Ok, I am officially pissed at my piano teacher right now. Everything was going ok until we started doing theory. I never liked theory, because it is really boring. Anyway, she was revising intervals with me, which I had sort of forgotten. I tried to ask her a question, then she fired up:

"Don't argue music with me."

So I remained quiet. She does have more experience in music than me. While doing the practice, I couldnt figure out a question and tried to ask her, but she just went:

"I taught you before. You just forgot."

That was insult to my memory. I still couldnt get it, and was trying to tell her my point of view, but she just couldnt be bothered and itterupted my sentence:

"I don't know how to teach you already."

My mind was shouting " THEN I PAY YOU TO COME HERE FOR WHAT? HUH? I continued my explanation, but couldnt go far before:

"Since you so clever, why don't you do it yourself?"

Oh My God! No one has the right to be arrogant! And no one has the right to say that! From anyone to anyone!PLEASE GET THAT STRAIGHT, LADY!

That was the last straw that broke the camel's back. I pay you so much is for you to teach me! Not to piss me off! If you can't even explain to your students, what for become a teacher? If you can't keep a cap on your temper, what for become a teacher?

You may play the piano better than me, you may be older (in fact, much older) than me, but that doesnt give you the right to be so arrogant over me! So what if you can play some perfect scales? So waht if you can sightread fast? When you can't even explain the stuff properly to your students or do mathematics that are just a little more complicated than the basic musical ones? HUH?

Seriously, quit your job if you can't handle it. Don't vent your stress on others. And don't try to be high and mighty around me. I can make you not come back with just a simple talk to my mum. So get it straight. Thank you very much.

Happy Chinese New Year! :D

So, if you are wondering why I have not been posting in such a long time, it is because school is really busy right now and I have been struggling to keep up. I was going to post yesterday because I wanted to try out my mac (YES, I GOT MY MAC-BOOK! :DDDD). But then I am not really used to it right now. And I always shut it down first before remembering that I have to update my blog. Maybe will try to post later if I have time, using my mac.

Yesterday was a really good day. Raffles gave us a holiday, and I was planning to visit Rulang, But erm...that plan sort of fell through. So I stayed home and caught up on tv shows online. Reunion dinner was good! Had a lot of fun playing with fireworks with cousins <3. They are coming to my place later on in the day to have yet another dinner together. Looking forward to the money and the food!

Okay, let me talk about camp steel now. Before going, I was really upset about missing 2 days of school, but at the same time excited because I knew it would be funner than ATC (which is a real torture, I tell you).It rained throughout the first day, and we couldn't practise orienteering D:. But the second day was really really really fun. My platoon did the High Confidence Challenge Course first, and I went for the wooden log balance beam. It was quite scary when I looked down. But then I kept my head straight and looked forward, and just walked. It was over too quick D: I was looking forward to Rappelling, but due to time constraints, we only managed the dry-run. Sigh. And we also didn't do Motivational Obstacle Course. D; Only paintball was good. Because our platoon was the last to go, we were allowed to finish up the left-over pellets :) I was concentrating more out not getting shot rather than shooting someone else. :p

Made lots of new friends. And added them plus many of the sirs on facebook. Many people stereotype the sirs to be fierce and tough, because they only see that side of them during camp. What they don't realise is that they have a social life too.

I really dont like it when people stereotype others when they have got no idea what sort of lives they lead. Like many people have stereotyped us Rafflesians to be nerdy, arrogant, whatever. But have they actually gotten to know us? Just because there are a handful of us who are really like that, It doesn't mean that we are all. So stop, please just stop.

Now, let me end on a happier note.
Happy Chinese New Year!

I am (almost) 14 years and act 14 ^_^

A random note I did on Facebook sometime back:

[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee

[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar

[ ] You own a credit card

[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car

[x ] You've done your own laundry

[ ] You can vote in an election

[x] You can cook for yourself

[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 2

[ ] You show up for school late a lot

[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket

[x] You've never gotten a detention

[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday

[ ] You like to take walks by yourself

[x ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[x] You know how to do the dishes

[x] You can count to 10 in another language

[x ] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[ ] You can mow the lawn

[x ] You study even when you don't have to

[ ] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR:8

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up

[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name

[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out

[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need

[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said

[ ] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment

[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party

[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[ ] You have more bills than you can pay

[x] You have been to the beach

[x] You use the internet every day

[x] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times

[ ]You make your bed in the morning

[x]You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

GRAND TOTAL: 14

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Today was first day of school for 2011. Just met form teacher and listened to a lot of talks. Not feeling really enthu about school right now. At least tomorrow end at 12.55. Considerably early. But then CCA has been changed to Mondays and alternate Thursdays. So Thursday end school early also no use. 213 is a RaM class, stand for Raffles Mobile, means each of us get a Macbook for a year. Happy and sad. Happy cuz got free Macbook, sad cuz my IT skills very bad. Sorry using so bad English. Not really in that mood.

Feel really weird greeting last year Sec 2s as Sec 3s and last year Sec 3s as Sec 4s. And we wont be able to greet sec 2s anymore cuz thats us. Unless we greet ourselves...Wonder how many Sec 1s will join this year.

I dont really write new year resolutions or follow them for that matter. But thought this year should just write some, as a guideline:

1. Sleep early when there is school the next day. (Recharges the brain)
2. Start on PTs and projects right after they are assigned, instead of dragging and waiting till the last moment.
3. Finish PTs and projects 3 days before due date for sufficient checking time.
4. Spend less money. (I didn't earn them, after all)
5. Spend free time studying instead of playing.
6. Go through the stuff studied at end of every week.
7. Start preparing for exams one month earlier, so no need to cram everything in at last moment.
8. Pay more attention in class. (Includes not sleeping)
9. Practise more piano so can improve faster.
10. Finish all homework. (Keep up with lessons)
11. Be nice to my juniors. (But not too nice)
12. Don't get parents angry so often.
13. Learn to type faster. (Will benefit my using of a Macbook)
14. Be more interested in Science and other subjects that I used to hate.
15. Eat less potato chips. (Helps in weight loss)
16. Treasure my Sec 2 year and not reminisce last year too much.
17. Be prepared for lessons.
18.Watch less dramas.
19. Spend less time on the Internet.
20. Learn to love myself.

Yup. You might notice that most of them is related to studies. I guess that is under the influence of parents and teachers reminding again and again that Sec 2 is a really important year because we choose our subject combinations that will affect our future...

So long! :D

The Holidays

Today is the last day of the school hols, well it was supposed to be tmr, but then there is CCAO tmr so still have to go to school. I always seem to let the holidays flash pass, without actually doing anything meaningful. The mindset is that there is still plenty of time left, can always do it later. But then the day before school reopens, the mind start to think of what it accomplished during the hols, and start to panick when it realises that the time has gone to waste. Like today I had didnt know whether to make use of the 'last' free day to relax and watch dramas or do some work. In the end, I did both. Watched Unriddle starring Rui En and did Math and Chinese.

I shall now try to sum up my holidays:

Places
Hong Kong
Wild Wild Wet
Escape Theme Park
Chalet
Primary School
Christmas Eve @ Orchard Rd
Countdown @ Marina Bay

People
NCOs
Platoonmates
Seniors
Cousins
Ex-classmates

Events
Platoon meetings
NCOs Outing
Company Chalet
Prize Presentation
Christmas
New Year

Dramas
Personal Taste
Nanny Daddy
Breakout
The Champion
舞动奇迹
Unriddle

Work
Chinese textbook
Vocab exercises
Compositions
Comprehensions
Piano
Ballet
Badminton

Well, this holiday was somewhat more enriching and fulfilling that the rest. It may be due to it being longer than usual, or the presence of platoonmates, or the traveling to Hong Kong, or my cousins being their usual fun-filled selves, or my mother making me study. Anyways, the hols are over and they are gone. So I shall stop pondering over them and instead look forward to the promising future. Feeling both excited and nervous about the first day of school.

Good luck everyone! :D

My First

Yo! So I guess this is my first post. Um, nothing significant really. Just thought that setting up a livejournal account would be a good way to preserve my memories as a teenager. Anyway, this blog is solely for my own purpose, so if I write anything that offends you, no one asked you to read it. AND, if you know you are not supposed to be here, LEAVE BEFORE I FIND OUT AND TRACK YOU DOWN.

K, that having been settled, the school is RGS and the class is 213. And also a Part B. Oh God, saying that really creeps me out. It is not about the scoldings or the new learnings, cuz I know I have really good platoonmates <3 , it is more of I being scared of not doing good enough. No, please dont think that I am a perfectionist.

I am anticipating this new academic year, and although challenges are bound to appear, I will at least have the experiences of last year.. Like not leaving PTs and AAs till the last moment. Hmmm. Also, school hours have been altered quite a bit: generally earlier dismissal times, but no more lunches, and Friday CES has been moved to the first two blocks instead of the last two. Hope it works out well. For everyone. I guess you must be tired of my rantings by now, so ta ta! :D