It's almost like I am depressed

Okay, which normal person wouldn't realise that tiled floor causes abrasion when you slide on it.

Even if you really didn't know it, which normal person would continue sliding on it after the first time without at least wearing socks or putting on some type of protection.

And which normal person would continue doing pointe even though you realised that you had forgotten to wear toe pads and your big toes are in serious agony because pointe shoes are so damn hard.