And it all boils down to luck??

So scared and lonely :( 

so close yet so far.

That feeling rlyrlyrly sucks :( ohwell i guess its just not meant to be :(((

To my 16-year-old self, im sorry. The letter you wrote to your future self, i.e. me right now, was the final push i needed. It gave me the courage and I have tried my best. But my best isnt enough. Im not good enough. Im sorry.  

head vs heart

I told you to go, but my heart yearned for you to stay. I was afraid of what would happen if you had stayed, afraid of what I would say, afraid of how much it would affect both of us.

Don't let me hold you back.