the incessant waves of nostalgia ohmannnn 

Is it simply human nature for us to be always reminiscing about the past, wishing we could somehow just go back in time? Sometimes i try to convince myself its due to this period of uncertainty. But life is always uncertain. At the back of my mind, I know there will come a time when I will be missing this period as well. Because thats just how life works. 

Yet, as much as I tell myself to live in the present, the memories are triggered so easily. And they are stacked like dominos, one leads to another to another and idk where it ends

it scares me so much:

that im almost indifferent to something i used to believe i rlyrly wanted, that i may just well be setting myself up for failure, that im getting my hopes up just for them to be crushed.


 but then again, they say "If your dreams don't scare you, you need to dream a little bigger".

Thank you parents, for the past 19 years.

Results day followed by birthday has called for an immense amount of reflection, but I can't translate my thoughts into words yet.

Happiness is a choice

Freak havent seen 3am in a longlong while. Brain just keeps running and im rly tired and just thinking about how im gonna be feeling in the upcoming hours makes me even more tired. Dk what to do to get myself out of this. Been aimlessly scrolling through my phone and ended up here. 

Whatever happens, i will accept it and make the best out of it.