HOW

How did I allow this book to sit in the corner of my bookshelf for the past 9 months, doing nothing but gathering dust.

How did I even manage to find it at a second-hand book sale 9 months ago.

How did I go through the past few months without finishing an actual (story)book.

How could I have not borrowed any library books for such a long time.

How could I have let myself forget how blissful it is to be able to delve into another world and spend an entire day in it.

How could I have let amazing stories that gave me goosebumps fade from memory.



This morning I woke up with a super desperate craving. I was craving for a good book, desperate to find back that feeling of being lost in a good book. I was originally going to reread shopaholic, but I figured it would take a long time to finish the whole series, so I just picked up a random book slotted right beside that series. So glad that I did. The feelings are coming back bit by bit, but I hardly have enough time to make them stay. And they make me guilty. Because its like if I have the time to read storybooks, then I should spend that time reading textbooks or chinese compositions or music scores or other boring mundane stuff.

How? :(

Oh, apparently this is my 200th post?

Today, I realised that I am a happy person. And I need to be more appreciative of all the things that make me happy. Because they could easily not have appeared in my life at all.

There is no point in being envious of other people who appear to be better. You have no idea what goes on on the other sides of their life.

There is no point in copying other people and thus living in their shadows. You need to stand out and create your own spotlight that features you.

There is also no point in trying to act. Sooner or later, you are going to 露出真相, might as well be confident of who you are.

I seriously need to stop taking everything for granted.

My thumb is swollen :(

Not gonna go to sleep until my grandma and cousin gets here. And apparently their flight has been delayed. So by the time they reach Singapore, travel across Singapore to get here, open suitcases that are full of surprises, talk a bit, and finally settle in, it would be time to get ready for school already.

Why can't I be on holiday like my cousin? Then I wouldn't have to go to school tomorrow, or for the rest of the one month that they are here. Then I wouldn't have to face exams and all other sorts of assessments and just chill and relax and home. Then I wouldn't have to wear the same boring attire everyday and be able to dress up according to my mood each day.

Oh dear, I miss my holidays sooooooo much. And other people from other countries just have to keep rubbing it in. Cause they are on freaking summer breaks that last up till 3 months!

Fine I shall go back to revising my Maths :(

Phew.

Stood on the weighing scale. Looked down. Stopped breathing. Looked up. Realised laptop was in my arms. Put down laptop. Looked down again. Let out breath that I had been holding.

“Running is a big question mark that’s there each and every day. It asks you, ‘Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?’”

I just went running. In a hoodie. Haha got a few weird looks from other people. But super shiok can. Haven't ran since napfa before the holidays.

The running during PT last Monday was slower than my normal walking speed, so I guess that is not counted.

Okay, so today's run wasn't that fast either, but it was such a different feeling running in a hoodie. I think the reason why I was wearing a hoodie was because it was super cold in the evening, and I was too lazy to take it off before starting the run, so I just kept it on.

Oh and my hair was in a side braid. Cause that was the hairstyle in the evening and if you turn it into a normal ponytail for the run the hair would be all curly and crazed up.

Haha one day I am going to go running in a bikini. Under appropriate circumstances, obviously.

Hai Gillian.

Haha today suddenly so sweet ah.

But seriously, so sweet :)

Totally made my day.

Muacks <3

Hai Audrey.

No, I didn't forget 3 July is your birthday.
I just forgot the date today.

But I have now remembered!

Happy Birthday Darling :D

You look taller.

It's almost like I am depressed

Okay, which normal person wouldn't realise that tiled floor causes abrasion when you slide on it.

Even if you really didn't know it, which normal person would continue sliding on it after the first time without at least wearing socks or putting on some type of protection.

And which normal person would continue doing pointe even though you realised that you had forgotten to wear toe pads and your big toes are in serious agony because pointe shoes are so damn hard.

She's only a decade old

Omg my cousin is so cute.

A few weeks ago she was looking through my accessories and she saw quite a number of owl stuff. Then a few days ago she went to australia for competition and she bought me a super adorable owl necklace there.

During the holidays she spent a super lot of time at my house. And I influenced her to watch Hot Shot and 娱乐百分百. Haha she rooted for my darling's team :D

I have posters and pictures on my wall, and she recognised my darlings :) Well, to be fair, she recognised one direction too. Apparently a lot of people in her class are crazy over them? No, don't judge me. Their poster was on the back of my door and its only there because i think louis is rather cute.

Hoho when she starts to appreciate guys I'm gonna make her fall in love with my darlings. :p

I had one whole crab to myself

Black pepper crab is better than chilli crab, even though the latter is not bad too. 

My tummy can fit one whole crab plus one plate of rice plus one cup of iced lemon tea.

Seriously, i ate one whole crab. Like 1 WHOLE CRAB. black pepper crab. 

It has been so long since I had eaten black pepper crab. oohhhh so nice. 

Zek, I understand what you mean when you said you wanted to vomit out what you had eaten just so that you could have that meal again. 

What a nice youth day :)

"You don't say, I don't say, no one will know"

Haha he is so slack I can't even describe it. He is a good source of entertainment though. Especially today.



I don't know what to post about, or what I can post about. The stats are so high and I have no idea who can be reading all this meaningless stuff. Maybe you can leave me a clue? somewhere, anywhere. Don't leave me here wondering whether I can post what I really want to :(

Sometimes I treat myself too nicely

Today there was only one real proper lesson. So slack compared to the past three days. The sleep stored from the holidays is almost running out. :(

Tomorrow afternoon will be reward time! YAY :D

i'm an owl

oh god my calves are killing me. And you'd think that sitting down or lying down will be enough; but no, the only thing that works is the fetal position. And that doesn't do much either.

WARNING: no ending

Holiday, holiday, holiday, hooooliiidayyy. WHOOOO!

Apparently, my mood is not in line with the fact that I have be ready to leave in 6 hours' time, thus resulting in my feeling very very unsleepy, thus resulting in my surfing the net, thus resulting in my finding a load of showluo videos which I am going to watch now, which may thus result to my going to sleep very very late. But whatever. Gonna spend more than 2 hours on the road and more than 2 hours on the sea later, which can obviously be used to sleep.

Such a sad thing the trip is so short though :( So hard to match my schedule to my cousin's.

No such word as 'pixelised'

Oh my its 4.30pm already?! In half an hour's time I will go watch my 100% entertainment, then it will be nighttime already! Wow, what a fast day. Well, in comparison to specs, today was fun (?) and time flies when you are having fun. Is it right to put it this way?

Hoho finally glammed myself up today after 3 days of wearing no.4.

Last 3 days                                                                                                Today
Hair all up in bun and fringe clipped back with black clip                      Hair down with a golden headband
No.4 top with black shirt                                                                        Sheer tank with neon bandeau
Baggy No.4 bottom                                                                                Short skirt
Heavy boots                                                                                           Silver slippers
Fingernails cut short                                                                               Silver toenails + Neon fingernails
Plain face                                                                                               Beautified face
Zero accessories                                                                                     Necklace + ring


Haha but honestly I have finally gotten used to wearing No.4. And now with my rank on, I can have more confidence :) Okay the pixelated uniform looks so cool with that velcro thing and the rank on :D Plus it feels so much lighter and thinner. Yay, can't wait to wear it :)

This is not the end; this is the beginning

(I deleted this part because certain people think it may tarnish our platoon's image if juniors read it. But it may already be too late...)

Okay so dearest-person-who-got-course-best-and-cried-and-got-surrounded-by-sirs-and-made-sergeantmajor-embarrassed, the guy next to me said "Eh, that course best person ah, from your school right? Wahsei, she look so fierce leh!" Hahaha, you should smile when receiving your award mah, otherwise scare the guys off alr. But I defended you okay, I said you were really nice and friendly :)

Okay so congratulations to you, dearest-person-who-got-course-best-and-cried-and-got-surrounded-by-sirs-and-made-sergeantmajor-embarrassed. 


And you too, dearest-person-who-got-gsk-best-and-whom-secfours-think-is-the-best-friend-of-your-other-award-winning-platoonmate.


Both of you deserved your awards :D




Today was actually really funny and quite enjoyable. Well, except for a giant blister on the sole of each foot. But other than that, the sirs finally became friendly :) My detail had a great IC, so we were first to finish for orienteering, thus we had a lot of time o sit down and chat. And then sometimes the sirs would come over and join in the conversation :) Haha they were so informal that they became sick :p

Specialist Course Phase 3 2012, 4 June to 6 June. We have turned from cadets into specialists, armed with our certificates and ranks and cookies and awards, ready to take the next step in our ncc path, and serve out units to the best of our abilities.

The worst is over, I hope

Te-o Kishanti! 

Gillian called Stephanie 'Sir'. 

Zek called Gillian 'Jenny'. 

Bernadette called Ma'am 'Sir'. 

Haha last year after camp STEEL we all felt like saying 'YES SIR!' to everyone, especially to the teachers.



There are all sorts of sirs, but I have never seen a cute one until this year. Then Shu found out today that he smokes :(  Why Sir, why? :(

While waiting for my nail polish to dry....

1. I starched my collars
2. I folded my sleeves
3. I packed my bag
4. I watched Corner With Love
5. I stalked people on FB
6. I dried my hair

Oh god this post is so pointless :(

Super interesting picture though :D :

Fa-ti-gue

I am going to sleep right after this post. *applause*

 I just deleted a whole paragraph about specs. Dunno why I did that....oh wells. No worries, I will give you this instead:

You tell me, how adorable he is <3

Hmph I stop posting for a while and readership goes down :(

So, life.

I shall start with Show Luo. Haven't missed a single episode of 100% Entertainment since 2 months ago. Finished watching Hot Shot yesterday. Don't understand why some ppl (tsk Zek) don't like it. Sooo nice. And such a different story from HMS or CWL. And I am now watching CWL. His songs in those 2 dramas are super nice.

Especially love the part at 1:45

1:06  <3




Was babysitting my cousins from Tuesday all the way to Thursday. At least I had my laptop with me and could watch Hot Shot. They started watching with me and I now they recognise Show Luo :D  I brought them to comics connection and they helped me find a bunch of Show Luo cards :p



SPECS COURSE. ohmytian. No, now is my break time before I start memorising SAR 21 stuff, I shall not think about SPECS.




The instant noodles from ATC taste horrible. And now I am getting scolded for wasting food. Great.